My Bad-Room

Time

2012-03-05T19:47:00.001+07:00

All I know is that time heals.

Time healed.

Time makes me forget.

And I, I forgot, already.

But then again, time is one amazing thing.

What it can do in such length, we'll never know.

But then again, time is... time.

Bringing along another kind of lament.
After one falling through despair.

Like escaping shit, but jumping right into another shit.

29-02-12

2012-02-29T23:43:00.000+07:00

So, there are only 10 minutes left before 29-02 is no more. Gonna see it again 4 years later, though :)

B U S T E D !

2012-02-28T10:48:00.000+07:00

I'm posting from school B-) ...and just got this feeling that I was somehow BUSTED. Oh well... never mind that.

Settlement

2012-02-26T22:24:00.001+07:00

Soo... Belakangan ini gue bisa randomly galau, dan galaunya itu entah mengapa... Well, gue bohong. Gue tahu kenapa gue galau. Namun (err.. namun), gue gak bisa curhat ke temen-temen di sekolah. Bukan karena gue gak percaya mereka, tapi lebih karena... gue gak bisa cerita ke mereka. I was too afraid, too ashamed. So, I didn't say a word to them.

Instead I told Moi and Nyo.

Gue merasa lebih nyaman cerita ke mereka, karena selain mereka lebih terpercaya, mereka juga sama-sama galau, mereka ga kenal orang yang menjadi sumber ke-galau-an gue. The last part adalah yang terpenting, they didn't know the person. Itu penting. Kalo gak, gue gak akan bisa cerita ke mereka ...yaiyalah, that's the whole point -___-" Dan kemudian sekarang gue menuliskannya di blog gue sendiri, basically karena gue yakin yang baca juga cuma temen-temen gue sejenis Moi, Nyo, Riri, Ndy gitu juga... wkwkkwk. No harm at all kalo gue nulis di sini :D ...and most importantly, that particular someone won't read this entry HERE, yeah right.

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Kalo lu cermat, seharusnya lu sadar bahwa secara tidak sengaja gue baru saja membeberkan garis besar alasan kegalauan gue... WOOOO!!

Jadi, ya, ini mengenai seseorang. I thought I might have some additional feelings to a particular someone. Not that it was a ***** or something, almost like a *****, but no, it was even subtler than that. It was just... confusion. Yes, it was only confusion, because I was, my feelings were, a bit unstable at the time. So I got confused in sorting my own feelings... and yeah you know what's next. Extremely galau.

Sepertinya gue sedikit terpengaruh dengan kata-kata orang di sekeliling gue. Jadi gue galau dengan perasaan gue sendiri. Gue pengen gue tetep pada keyakinan hati gue, tapi gue ga ngerti gimana handle perasaan gue sendiri setelah mendengar kata-kata orang. Apa yang gue pengen dengan apa yang orang-orang kira gue pengen jadi satu dan... gue sendiri jadi bingung.

Akhirnya gue ceritain dengan cukup detil masalah gue ke Moi sama Nyo kemaren Sabtu. And I was sooo glad that they understood me, and at least they didn't make much fun of me. Kita sama-sama galau meeeeen... Sedih banget deh :'(

But now, setelah gue mencurahkan sedikit beban hati gue ke mereka, gue bisa mikir dengan lebih tenang dan lebih yakin sekarang, makanya tadi gue bisa bilang kalau ini semata-mata cuma confusion aja, ga lebih. Mungkin saat gue bingung itu, gue emang sedikit terbawa emosi dan merasakan hal itu tapi, sekarang gue ngerti kalo gue enggak seharusnya dan emang enggak merasakan hal itu sepenuhnya. Gue cuma bingung. Gue tekankan, gue cuma bingung.

...oke, gue bohong lagi. Kalo lu tanya bohong apa lagi, silakan pikir sendiri. Karena gue pokonya udah membuat keputusan kalo gue... gitu deh.

Sekian.

p.s.
GUE MAU NYARI COWOOOOOOOO!!! :''''''''(

Quite A Disappointment

2012-02-23T19:45:00.000+07:00

I guess things are going back to normal. I mean, everything's slowly turning back to the beginning, and it should be good right? Because things are going back to the time when they're used to. So, what's with the disappointment? As if I just lost something? Like, even if someday, eventually, I gain another one, after losing the other one, I know it isn't the right one. It will feel somewhat odd and I won't like it.

Losing a friend, if not necessary, is... quite heartbreaking. So this disappointment I'm feeling right now, feels like that.

Something which is used to be normal, when it changes even for a bit, will never just change back to normal as usual. Because it will be different. Even if it will only slightly different, it's still different. And it hurts, even if it's only for a little tiny bit.

Treated Like A Woman

2012-02-17T18:14:00.000+07:00

Because never once I have someone special in my life, I haven't known how it would feel like, being treated like a woman should. Not that I eager to know, it's just... sometimes I'm so envious. Of those girls, that have ever been held, loved, like they were so precious it's a big loss to lose them.

Maybe God still think it's too early for me, that He knows that I will not know how to handle any romance, yet.

Valentine's Day!!

2012-02-14T23:52:00.002+07:00

Hey guuuys!! Valentine's at the corner!! WOWOWOWOWOWO!! It's Valentine!!

...so what?

Yeah. So, what? For me, Valentine's Day or not, today was the same old Tuesday, the boring and sodding Tuesday, has never changed. Okay, so probably it was only me who felt this way, for I haven't ever been in any special relationship. So, yeah, today was a painfully normal day. Even worse, at some points.

No. The point is, by posting this, I just wanted to boast that, even though I didn't have a boyfriend, I did receive some chocolates. They were from my friends, though, and all of them were from girls... But I did receive one from a boy... buuuuuut. He wasn't my boyfriend, he was just normal, NOT SPECIAL, boy friend. But we're close enough that he gave me a chocolate. He joked that I was his 2nd (or maybe 3rd? Hahaha..) girlfriend, that's why he gave me one. Oh well... boy *rolleyes*

But now, I have this urging matter. Should I give them some chocolates as the way to show that I was grateful? I know I should. But, money speaks better. The questions are: when and how.

When should I give them? How am I supposed to act, when I give them the chocolates? What will be their reactions? Surely I think it'll be awkward... for it's not gonna be the day. Like, I'll be a week later than the actual day.... *sigh*

Soooo, these chocolates were from:

15-02-12

p.s.

Aaaand, I got another chocolate from KI (a girl... not a boy) today :)

Moving On

2012-02-13T21:49:00.001+07:00

Well yeah! Menjelang hari Valentine, tiba-tiba saja otak gue terserang sebuah ide. Ide untuk menulis. Menulis di blog gue. Blog gue yang sudah terbengkalai. Terbengkalai selama lebih kurang satu bulan. Jadiiiiii... what's the idea I've been dying to write down?

Well, that's about... MOVING ON.

Moving on is something that I certified as TOP mission. Meaning it's hard and.. I mean very hard. Yeah. But, what's moving on?

Moving on in my dictionary is an activity that requires you to doodle on your ex-crush/ex-lover pictures then tear them down into million pieces; delete every picture of your ex-crush/ex-lover, then empty your recycle bin (no restoring); glue back your torn heart back into one piece, or maybe buy a new heart (if possible); stop thinking, crying, feeling hurt whenever the image of your ex-crush/ex-lover pops into your pretty little mind; have fun with friends; do anything that can make you feel so sexy and free.... okay, never mind the last one.

Jadi, setelah satu tahun penantian, akhirnya gue, bener-bener sebener-benernya, patah hati. Gue udah tau sih konsekuensi kalo gue naksir itu orang, gue bakalan patah hati. Well, tapi... gue tetep naksir dia, dan gue entah mengapa merasa lebih aman kalau gue naksir dia. Sebenernya sih sakit banget loh kalau patah hati, tapi entah mengapa yang kali ini, gue merasa lebih... tidak sakit dibandingkan pas I was still in junior high school. Maybe, just maybe, this time I didn't love him as much as when I loved that one back then.

So, because it didn't hurt that much, I have this ease feeling to get back to my senses and see that I still have a long way to go and that there'll be someone God's prepared for me, waiting somewhere in the line. Someone. My betrothed. But... just like I said, it's still a long way to go. I'm still in senior high school, haven't even gone to university. So, all I need to do is live my life happily and successfully and trust that God has everything planned for me.

Dan sekarang, I had moved on. It was over, my feelings for him. It still aches though, because the pain's been there for a year, and it's just begun healing sometimes ago. But, I believe I'm through with this pathetic feelings. Deep, deep, deeeeeeeep down in my heart, I gotta admit that, I had already moved on long time ago, I just didn't want to let go the feelings, because... as I've said before, it secured me to cherish the feelings. But.. I'm not quite sure about that. I don't understand myself.

Well then, the sole and ultimate conclusion is: I'm single. And tomorrow is Valentine's day. And I could've just said fuck the world. I don't care.

Tears

2012-01-21T19:07:00.001+07:00

Sometimes, I wonder what the meaning behind all tears that I have shed up until now, was.

Was it because I loved him that much that being ignored, which followed an indirect rejection from him was more than painful, or was it because he ignored me flatly which meant I was indirectly rejected that it crushed my pride and dignity but I was still foolishly and helplessly fancy him?

What was the tears for?

I was so pathetic. Even more now.

Blue, Blue Friday

2012-01-19T20:10:00.000+07:00

Second post on January 2012, and it's telling the fact that now I'm officially heart broken. Thanks to a certain someone, someone out there. But I still haven't decided yet, whether to move on soon, or just leave the heart shattering in pieces and continue loving him painfully, unconditionally.

It''s hard when it comes to dealing with my heart. I'm not an expert, not a master when it comes to something as fishy as love. I'm helpless.

But I, still miss him. I'm missing him. Just much. But, my heart is aching. Just much.

What a blue Friday.

New Year 2012

2012-01-01T22:14:00.000+07:00

The very first post on the beginning of 2012. Happy New Year for all of you, though it's a bit too late... but no matter.

This year's prospects, hmm... let's say I haven't thought about anything yet. But, best wishes for everyone. Be stronger, steadier, wiser, nicer, better, shinier, more blessed, more organized and all.

Happy New Year!

All Hell Break Loose, Day 1

2011-11-29T15:24:00.000+07:00

So yeah, today is the first day when all hell break loose. First demon that came to earth, name's Misery. He is rank third of the big four demons--The Science. Using an alias Chemistry as a disguised, he is a bit mysterious.

He has various techniques to choke his victims out of their lives. His attacks lay on confusion and distrust within the heart and brain, causing such a chaos (which then leads to instability) inside the human. He's also an expert at making potions. That's why Misery is often called as Alchemist. One of the most famous and dreadful potions of his is Thermodienamics. The potion will cause severe damage to the victim inner soul and drained it until the victim lose his/her will to live--like a living dead. He usually uses his gun--The Sweet D--which loaded with special bullets "D'atomic" to shoot his victims. "D'atomic" is the name for the specially made bullets. The bullets contain various potions, depend on the bullets code. The most popular is "D'atomic-C".

But there are some times that he doesn't use his gun but instead he uses his claws that planted inside his hands. It is confirmed that the claws contains such a deadly potion.

PROFILE:
Name : Misery
Alias : Chemistry, Cemisery, Alchemist, Alchemisery
Gender : Male
Specialties : Potions, Mind distortion
Weapons : Gun "The Sweet D", Claws
Personality : Mysterious, serious, observant
Height : [Human] 178 cm ; [Demon] 3 m

TRIVIA
1. His human form is rumored to be the most handsome among The Science.

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And so that's all for now. If I have time (after this exam) I'll write the full biography of Misery.

Gotta' face Phi-sucks tomorrow, the 2nd in command. Bless me!

#PMA stands for Positive Mental Attitude

2011-11-17T16:54:00.012+07:00

So guys, I've been trying to be positive recently, I mean, just mentally. But sure it did great, yeah I'm morally motivated now. It's a good thing to to, especially when you have nothing to do but grieve over this hard life. So, #PMA everyday, you silly people!! *biggrin*

Below are some tweets that I've tweeted for sometimes. Some were mine, and some were retweeted from Benjamin Madden (on his Twitter account). Yeah, he is so... cool. Fancy him even more now. He was the one who influenced me to keep my life (specifically my way of thinking) positive everyday. He's so inspiring :D

So here goes. Hope they'll be able to brighten your going-downhill-spririt-of-life!

17-Oct-11
I need to learn better at how to console myself after suppressing myself from... shits, various shits.

25-Oct-11
I may not be someone with dominance, but don't ever dream of looking down at me and bossing me around. I'm the boss of myself

"Approach your day with Positivity. Be relentless and stay Positive. #PMA"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

28-Oct-11
Better to stand on your own feet than to lean on someone. After all, the one who can help you is yourself.

30-Oct-11
Whatever the fuck with tempo. Play the pace as heart desire. That's called bloody improvisation.

2-Nov-11
"Try to see the challenges you face as a blessing! Now, go to bed you little sh!t's. And when you get up tomorrow keep it positive"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

6-Nov-11
"Keep it POSITIVE FVCKERS. #PMA bein negative about anything won't help you."
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

7-Nov-11
I know it very well that life's so hard.But, fight for it and feel the joy afterward, otherwise you'll end up slumping in mortification--being a total loser. #PMA

Planning on robbing my freedom? Over my fuckin' dead body. I'm nobody's dog. Never will.

8-Nov-11
"No matter how far U fall, U can always climb back up.1 foot in front of the other,1 day at a time. Chip away at the mountain in front of U."
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

9-Nov-11
"Set your sights on what U want most&Work for it everyday. U'll be amazed at the results of handwork&dedication. keep it positive Fvkers #PMA"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

10-Nov-11
When hunger strikes, do eat. Be thankful that we still get enough food each day. #PMA

11-Nov-11
Over-praying is mere bluff if you do nothing but shit.Do pray, but balance it with concrete actions.Surely you'll see God's work there #PMA

"Health&time. Most valuable things In life."
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

Learn to appreciate your time while you still can. Never know when your time will be robbed from you. #PMA!!

Holy fart. It's hard to be positive all the time, but... Gotta' try to restrain the urge to go bumming. Gotta' Keep the #PMA everyday!!

The newest trademark from me: I know life's hard, but keep your chin up!! #PMA everyday~ ╭(′▽`)╯

12-Nov-11
Tiring yourself out is unhealthy, but being a lazy-ass is even worse. Organize your time wisely #PMA

I do well in staying compose in the middle of a bloody riot. I keep my head cool, I don't get provoked by idiocy #PMA

13-Nov-11
"Have a little faith."
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

@ Pancious :9 sometimes I need to let go the fear of getting fatter, because the time is still young might as well enjoy it #PMA

14-Nov-11
I'm taking back what I've just said! The food might look like a wrecked-havoc ship, but the taste was amazing. Such a natural-born-chef #PMA

Don't judge a book by its cover. Don't judge someone before you really know him. The concept works 4 "Don't judge a food by its look" #PMA

15-Nov-11
#PMA everyday!! Don't sulk, don't slump. Do stand and do shine.

"Be remembered by the people U meet as some1 who encouraged&inspired, not some1 who discouraged. It's never to late to change YOUR steez #PMA"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

16-Nov-11
Just in case you've ever thought that you're nothing, remember that no one was born without meaning. You ARE something for this world #PMA

So, don't give up. If you stumble down the road, straighten your pace again. I know it's hard, but when there's a will, there's a way #PMA

17-Nov-11
"Keep that #PMA all day especially when the world try's to take it away FVCKERS"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

"When it comes down2it, you're gonna be whatever U decide You're gonna be. Don't let someone else decide for U Work4your goals FVCKERS #PMA"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

"If all we are is where we've been then i know where I want to be,no matter how far I drift again you keep a light on for me. God is good"
----Re-tweeted from Benjamin Madden \m/

God's always there to help you to get back to your feet when you fall down to the pit of miseries. Never stop praying while struggling #PMA

Really, senior high school's been biting me to death... The good news is I'm still here. Whatever. Need to think positively. Yeah \m/ #PMA

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Yeah, so that's all for for now. Be sure to keep it positive everyday!! I'll be sure to do so, too :D
I know life's hard, but keep your chin up!

Love!

p.s. I didn't say that you can't be negative sometimes, though :p it's human thing after all.

Redemption

2011-11-13T11:26:00.003+07:00

There were times when I thought it'd be much better...

if she chose someone else, then,

Her world would be so much better,
then maybe he wouldn't even commit such dis-gracious sins,

I were never here,
I didn't need to feel hurt all the time like now.

But they were only bloody "ifs".

People just don't know how it feels like standing in my shoes.

Fuck.

Ganyang Korupsi!

2011-10-09T21:06:00.002+07:00

This essay is written in Indonesian for its prime purpose is to be submitted as a complementary for Indonesian subject.

But because I thought it's such a waste if I don't tell the world what I had in mind, I decided to post it here. Because this is MY blog and NO ONE pays attention to this blog, I feel at ease and feel no shame whatsoever to share this post with the world.

So, let's... rock (?).

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Ganyang Korupsi!

Dewasa ini, “korupsi” merupakan sesuatu yang akrab menyapa telinga kita—para pendengar berita nusantara, dengan tidak segan, seolah hal tersebut merupakan sesuatu yang lumrah terjadi. Padahal, ketika kita semua masih duduk di bangku SD, kita sudah diajari bahwa adalah hal yang memalukan dan jahat dan merupakan cerminan nyata atas keserakahan manusia, korupsi. Memang suatu hal yang mudah ketika kita hanya berbicara sekedar teori, tetapi bagai menggendong gunung di punggung ketika kita bicara pengaplikasian teori yang kita kuasai secara langsung dalam kehidupan sehari-hari. Inilah mengapa banyak pejabat-pejabat negara—yang sekarang juga bertitel “koruptor”, yang meski berpendidikan tinggi, kelakuannya hina. Menurut saya, ada beberapa hal yang sekiranya masih bisa ditinjau ulang untuk memberantas budaya korupsi dari ranah Indonesia.

Pertama, biasakan keluarga untuk pergi beribadah dengan teratur dan sungguh-sungguh. Aspek Ketuhanan adalah yang utama, maka inilah yang pertama muncul ketika kita bicara hal mengayomi moral bangsa dari setan keserakahan, korupsi. Tentunya, seseorang dengan iman yang matang, dewasa, dan teguh akan kuat untuk menahan hasrat dirinya untuk mencari keuntungan bagi dirinya sendiri yang ia peroleh dari pencuriannya terhadap hak-hak orang lain. Kunci utama untuk memberantas korupsi sebenarnya hanya sesimpel ini, menurut saya. Namun, seperti yang sudah saya tuliskan sebelumnya—berteori mudah, berkelakuan sedemekian teori susah—hal ini pun sulit untuk dilakukan, karena dewasa ini, nyaris semua kegiatan kita merampas waktu kita untuk mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan, atau masih banyak faktor-faktor lain yang mempengaruhi. Jika saya salah mengenai hal ini, pastinya jumlah koruptor di Indonesia hanya sebatas hitungan 20 jari, bisa kurang –dan tak menutup kemungkinan—bisa lebih. Faktanya?

Kedua, biasakan hidup tidak terikat dengan kemajuan teknologi. Bukannya mau mengatakan kita semua harus gaptek—gagap teknologi. Maksud saya adalah, jangan membuat kemajuan teknologi yang seharusnya berdampak positif menjadi negatif dengan membuat hal tersebut mengikat kehidupan kita. Sifat dasar manusia adalah ketidakpernahpuasan, sesuatu yang mendarah daging dalam setiap individu. Jika kemajuan teknologi sudah mengikat kehidupan kita, kejadian yang selanjutnya terjadi adalah kita akan terus mengikuti perkembangan teknologi, sebisa mungkin harus selalu memiliki teknologi tersebut, dan parahnya beberapa orang berusaha memperoleh teknologi tersebut dengan menghalalkan berbagai cara. Paradigma seperti ini tidak hanya terjadi ketika kemajuan teknologi mengikat kita, namun juga terjadi meski yang menjadi objeknya bukan teknologi. Intinya, ketika kita membuat hal-hal duniawi mengikat kehidupan seseorang, persentase orang tersebut melakukan tindakan korupsi menjadi lebih tinggi. Karena kitalah yang membuat hal-hal duniawi itu, maka kita jugalah yang mesti memegang kendali atas mereka, jangan malah menjadikan diri kita budak dari sesuatu yang mestinya menjadi budak kita. Pintar-pintarlah menilai yang baik dan buruk!

Saya kira dua hal di atas cukup menggambarkan apa-apa saja yang mesti ditinjau ulang dan diperbaiki untuk memberantas budaya korupsi dari bumi Indonesia ini, meski pun saya tidak mengatakan bahwa dua hal itu saja cukup, karena masih banyak hal lain yang harus diperhatikan lebih lanjut lagi. Ingatlah bahwa bangsa kita adalah bangsa yang seharusnya menjunjung tinggi keadilan dan kejujuran, dan mestinya kita sudah menjadi negara yang makmur, tapi tertunda karena ulah para tikus got di pemerintahan. Maka dari itu, ayo ganyang korupsi di Indonesia!

Dwina Karina

X-6/10

F F F

2011-10-08T21:13:00.002+07:00

I'm so devastated.

Yeah. I notice that lately I've been saying that one simple yet depressing sentence. It just proved how sickening school is. Maybe not the entire thing about school, but sure, the never-ending tasks.. the life-taking tests.. the fuckin whatever... they are the prime causes.

So, last month I just received my marks report. And for fuck sake, the paper were burned with flaming marks. The damn school has high standards, and there I go, thinking that I'd be able to catch up.

It's been a mistake from the first place.

But I see that it's no time for me to mourn and feel depressed and frustrated over this matter. I need to get up, and run. Not 'run from the problems' but 'run to catch up with settlements'. I hope I'll get over this second (or maybe 'third'?) dark age soon. Sweet Jesus blesses me!

My Color

2011-10-08T11:50:00.003+07:00

you are darkslateblue
#483D8B

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Apparently, this is quite true, except this one part "you're good in social situations and want to fit in". I find it hard to believe as the fact is I just can't mingle with people easily.

Good Charlotte

2011-09-03T14:40:00.002+07:00

....yeah!

Kertas OM!!

2011-08-22T20:06:00.004+07:00

I know it's a weird title, but these certain papers---Kertas Om---are like a mind clearer for me. These papers were once belong to Om. Who is Om?

Om is a nickname for my home-tutor's husband!! Yeah. Because I call my tutor "Tante", than I'm supposed to call her husband as "Om", right? Hehehe *grin*

So, Om is a very respectable man in my eyes. He is not as handsome as Don Juan, but he is neat. He is a successful man, and has a lot of experiences in his work life. He doesn't speak too much. Although I've never have an actual conversation with him (yet), but I think he has a good personality, at least that's what I can gather from the stories I heard from Tante. That's why I kinda' fancy him. I wish I'll be like Om someday in the future. Respectable, successful...

Well, that's a bit information about Om.

Now, it's the Kertas Om.

Honestly this is pretty ridiculous. How the hell can it be, mere old papers can give inspiration in such desperation and frustration for tomorrow hopeless-math-test? Just because the papers were once Om's belongings doesn't mean it has super magics, does it?

I guess this is what you'd like to call as "Suggestion". Because I think that Om is a very great person, I think that any stuff which is related to him can make me turn into a great person, too. It's that simple and ridiculous, but it works for me.

Thanks Om! I owe you! Keep sending me some cheers from your stuffs! And wish me well for my math test tomorrow! :D

Anyway, the picture above is the said papers.

I'm Hoping For a Fudanshi

2011-08-21T13:55:00.006+07:00

Helloo. Now that the mood is slightly better, I quit mourning over this stupid life. Instead, I want to share about... FUDANSHI.

Yep. Fudanshi. Anyone here knows it?

It's the same as fujoshi, the difference is that's for boys. So, in short, Fudanshi is boys who like yaoi. And if you don't know what yaoi is, recall my previous entry: Boy x Boy.

What I want to say is that it's so hard to find fudanshi. I hope someday I'll befriend with one ;)

It's gonna be exciting, to share the thoughts with the real males, as you know that yaoi is about the guys relationship. I want to hear their opinions. What they think about it. What they feel when they read/watch it.

For me, whenever the mood is sliding down, yaoi can save it. Whenever I don't have anything to do, I end up reading some yaoi mangas which are in my laptop---waiting to be reread. There are some times that I feel just a bit bored. However, I've never feel really bored with it, as it has never failed to amuse me yet... the art work, the story, even the PWP one.

I've been a fujoshi for (more or less) 4 years. And it'll be a year and 4 months left till I reach the legal age: 18, to read it legally. Hahaha :D Yaoi is 18+, right? Shounen-ai is... any age may read, ...right? Okay, ignore me.

So, if you are a fudansi, let's talk! And I do welcome fujoshi as well. *grin*

Sick of Home

2011-08-20T07:37:00.010+07:00

It's funny that days prior I wrote about homesickness. Now, I'm writing about sick of the very same home we've talked before. Well, maybe that's because I'm still an unstable adolescent. And yes, I did mention that this home is riot, practically almost everyday. That I don't have the most wonderful parents ever, I did mention it too, right? Or didn't I? Now I did.

So.

Well, I don't know where to start actually. I should be giving some finishing touch to my homework instead... but... It can wait, I suppose.

So.

Yesterday was a very upsetting day. I had a physics test that day, and the test was awfully difficult. I really had no idea how to answer it. It wasn't like I didn't study, I did study, studied until I felt like shedding some tears, but they didn't come out. I gave my best shot, but I still failed. I might sound exaggerating, but I really did feel like total shit. That was the first test and I failed. God knew how upset I was. I wanted to apply for scholarship, that's why I couldn't afford such a laid back like that. Another thing that drove more upset was that I failed not only on the test but also the studying process. It proved me I was just another stupid girl.

And so, for a reliever, I planned to go to a movie with my friend afterward. I planned this the day before yesterday, However, just when I was quarter-way to the destination point, I read a message from my dad that he would pick me up at 3, so I immediately looked over my watch and it was showing 3.30 (or more, I forgot). He was already late for an half hour. Of course the next thing I did was calling him, asking for bloody confirmation. He said that he would arrive at my place in any minutes. He just ruined my plan for the-god-knows-how-many-times.

I just had a very rough day at school and I must cancelled the thing which could turn the already-bad-day slightly better.

The thing that made me felt like exploding for more was that he didn't tell me the day after tomorrow. He told me only yesterday. If he told me much earlier I could cancel the plan and planned for something else, and I wouldn't be this upset. Another thing was, actually, I needed to go to the orthodontist too. That's why I was picked up at supposedly 3 pm. But Mom also didn't tell me much earlier. It was like... GOD! HOW COULD THEY DO THIS TO ME?! Well yes, they might not know my rough state. But, doing things all the way they wanted and forced me to go along with that with no negotiations allowed, that's too much for me, at least in my yesterday condition.

With those things happened to me continuously, plus all the depressing things days prior---which I've been struggling so hard in order to suppress and ignore...

I felt like bursting in anger, and I did.

But then, my mistake was that I couldn't control my emotion. But hey, anyone could lose their temper once in a while, it's human thing.

So the story continued to the point when I acted like an arse in front of my sis buddies and my dad colleague. I knew that I had crossed the lines, nevertheless, I did feel uneasy after. I knew what's wrong and what's right. But apparently, yesterday the temper took control over me.

When I arrived at my sis' place to pick mom up (who came along because sis was sick again, it was here eyes this time), mom asked me to go sis' room because mom wanted to borrew my USB flash-disk. But the moment I stepped inside the room, I heard such sounds of stupid-laughter coming from the people inside---mom's, sis' and her 2 friends. The rage which was burning passionately inside me instantly rose up. Especially hearing mom's laughter, that's just unfair. She just made me upset and there she had a happy-happy?! Didn't she feel guilty at all? Well then you know what happened next, I became even muuuuuch worse, much an arse.

Long story short, I was just informed by mom at 12 am today (or somewhere around it) that my sis friends felt offended by my action yesterday, and they were ready to go gossiping about this bad-manner-younger-sister at their campus. And mom said, once the gossip reach the campus, it would spread like wildfire. Hahaha. Fuck you guys.

Oh and mom made me stayed up all night---because she told me when I already fell asleep (Note to you, when I sleep then something disturbs me, I can't sleep afterwards, it will take me several hours until I feel sleepy again).

I, honestly speaking, didn't care at all. They can spread the gossip like wildfire.

I don't even go to their goddamn campus, I'm still a bloody senior high-schooler for Merlin's sake! And I believe my sis could handle herself if later the gossip offends her.

The thing that might get me alerted that my dad's colleague would do something to my dad in the office. Well, he works there to make ends meet. If something were about to happen to him in the office, the whole family would be in a massive trouble for sure, financially.

As for now, mom is siding with my sis' friends and is firing hostility with me, probably---given the fact that there's a-cold-war-like between us now.

What I didn't accept is that she went siding with other people opinions, made me the only one to blame for every-fuckin-thing, like I was the very very bad girl which need to be disciplined right away. But she never asked me why---I didn't ask her to understand because I knew she would never be able to. But she never tried to find out the story behind it, the reason. She just accused me, and that's all she did. She never tried, and maybe she didn't even have the intention to know "WHY".

So, fuck mom, WHY?

p.s. but if in the end she asks why, I don't feel like explaining. The will to explain is already expired.

Childhood Days

2011-08-20T01:15:00.002+07:00

Back in my childhood days, I was the biggest of all the five granddaughters. And when I said "biggest:, it didn't mean the tallest. Big here is fat. Because, I was the shortest and the fattest.

People used to compare me to the rest. Said that, "Oh wow, she (me) is fatter than blablabla" to me. And then. when I had a sleepover and I accidentally didn't bring my own clothes, they all would worry whether they had the size that they could lend over to me.

They thought I was okay with them treating me like that.

They were the ones who made me so afraid of getting fat. Note to you, apparently, I wasn't their "fattest" cousin anymore, because someone else had already took my podium.

And now, those people who used to say that sinful thing---who used to make a comparison of me to the other four cousins, won;t stop saying, "You are not fat" or "Why are you losing weight like this?" as if they want me to turn into their biggest girl again.

Darn, I Had a Bad Day

2011-08-19T17:07:00.000+07:00

Yeah. I failed the physics test today. Penniless. Got cancelled watching Kungfu Panda 2 because the friggin' parents ruined the plan.

And here, a stranger---a fat woman, is sitting next to me in the car.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK! FUCKIN FUCK TO EVERYONE WHO TOTALLY RUINED THIS ALREADY-DAMNED-FRIDAY!

Bloody dimwit hell, I can't stop swearing... FUCK!!

Homesick

2011-08-11T18:32:00.004+07:00

I'm not saying that my house is the best house ever. That it looks like a shining castle. That its living room is as big as a grand hall of a 5 stars hotel. That my house is built from gold instead of bricks. That my house has a swimming pool, or maybe a duck pond. That my house has such a very big garden. That my house is so wonderful, as wonderful as a fairy tale can be.

I'm not saying that my family employ several housemaids. That my family is a bit too blessed by billions money. That my family is consisted of amazing persons, like they have big influences in every aspect of wonderful life. That my family is so heart-warming. That my family is so wonderful, I can't keep myself away in any way.

I'm not saying all those things.

I'm merely struck by this homesickness.

Because, now that I've grown up (well, I don't know if it's matter---that I'm a grown up now, as I'm sure as hell, even if I were still a kid I'd still feel the same), I know that that is my house, that is my home, that is the place where I'll always come back after the long journey. That's the place where my childhood began. That is... my only home, for now.

Because no matter what a riot my house is, no matter how rash the arguments shot between mom and dad, I know that that is the only safest sanctuary. Because, I, too, know that Mom will be the only one who loves me the most. That I, too, still feel so grateful toward dad, despite his uncontrollable mouth. He still holds on his responsibility as a father, at least to me and sis. He doesn't leave us in poverty.

Oh. God. I'm suffered from homesickness. And it makes me forget about all of the bad things which I should never forget. Now you tell me, what's good and what's bad.

Draco Dormiens Nunquam Titillandus

2011-08-06T11:25:00.003+07:00

Well, no reason. Just got the urge to blog this. *grin*

Anyway, never tickle the sleeping dragon!

Friends

2011-08-02T18:33:00.004+07:00

This popped up out of nowhere while I was daydreaming, days ago---maybe months ago. The stuff's kind of random, and a bit absurd---that's of course if you don't get the meaning. It was umm... a conversation between two friends.

I don't know if this is what you'd like to call as cliche, but... if you squint quite hard, you'll get the message, you can read it like an open book.

So it begins...

“Why are you letting me go?”

“Because we were friends, we are friends.”

“And so what? They'll still try to make you kill me despite the fact that we are friends.”

“Because what friend does kill her friend? Friends don’t stab each other.”

“But if you are letting me go now, that means someone else will stab your back.”

“At least, it won’t be you---who’ll stab my back, right? But if I don’t let you go, it’ll be me--- the one who’ll stab yours. And you know, as I said, friends don’t stab each other.”

You know what, it's nice to come up with something this... positive (sometimes), I might say---as it's not my regular taste. But, not bad right? I said it's nice.

Pottermore

2011-08-01T18:37:00.006+07:00

Hey-ho! I know that this one's kinda' useless, but I feel like boasting this to the whole world.

Now, all I have to do is wait for the Welcome email. I'm so happy, because I can be counted as the early bird, one of the lucky few. HEHEHE. Too bad that the email may come in several weeks later due to the lots of "the lucky few".

Anyway, I'm still happy *giggle*

Oh. There are still 5 days left for you to register and get the chance of being one of the lucky few, or you may wait till October 2011, as the website will be open for public. But you need to find the magical quill by answering the riddle first, each day they will reveal a new clue. Day three is about the third book, and so on. You can find the complete instructions at the website.

Simply click this---Pottermore.

Family Portrait

2011-07-31T20:01:00.002+07:00

No, look here. The hostility which is built between us is too much to be considered as bearable. That's why, we just can't play pretend. Because, even pretending is painful, and there's no way to act like it comes naturally.

Even though, deep down in my heart, I wish so.

Thank you. *bow*

Disappointment

2011-07-28T21:44:00.007+07:00

Because some people think that cancelling something is an easy-to-do thing. Hell knows, how much different their sets of rules with the rules I'm leading on. Truth be told, because they don't stand in my shoes. They'll never get to understand, the feeling of being hurt by the cancellation.

And here, I am trapped in between both the one who does the cancellation, and the one who receives the cancellation. I'm trapped in between both parties. But, now, that's beside the point. I'm so shitted.

But, apparently, some people also think that even though they have ever experienced the cancellations, they can still handle the disappointments which come after. And, I think, they expect the same outcome from everyone else. While some people that ever cancelled something---which might get hurt some other people, from what they've done---think that, it's just that, tell them "sorry" like assholes, and get on with the life, not even thinking twice.

They just don't understand the feeling that suffocating me inside. At some point, being the one who does the damn cancellation, hurts my pride. It brings great pain to my pride. It's tearing apart my pride. It makes me feel like a shameful idiot which is not very responsible. I'm so embarrassed. Some people may think that I'm exaggerating, but seriously, that's what I'm feeling right now. Because I hate being cancelled, it shames me so much, being the one who does the damn cancellation.

And then, being the one who gets cancelled, it's just... very disappointing. Hell knows, how much.

p.s It feels like it's been years since the last time I cried over something that had something to do with me directly, like this, like now. Not because of some books, movies, dramas, or what.

The Proposal

2011-07-28T21:10:00.001+07:00

Have I been asking too much, lately?

p.s I'm not taking any call, atm. I'm thinking. I'm brainstorming my goddamn brain.

The Oldman

2011-07-25T23:53:00.002+07:00

Heck. I don't wish to have the best oldman ever in this universe. No, I don't. I just wish to have the better one.

Maybe when I was still much younger, I wished for the much better oldman. When I was older, at the peak of my rebellious age, I thought I'll be better off without one. Now, that I've gone through all of them, I just wish for the better one, even if it's only slightly better, I'll still be thankful to God.

Am I hoping for the impossible? God knows.

Holiday (End)

2011-07-16T20:34:00.003+07:00

As the holiday is coming to an end, I have no sweet greetings, SERIOUSLY PEOPLE, the goddamn holiday IS. COMING. TO. AN. END. BY. THE. END. OF. THIS. WEEK.

Oh God, help me, please, to re-schedule my messed up life during the one month holiday. I lost myself somewhere there.

And, I have a very wonderful great news. I am, Dwina Karina, is separated from my buddies in the previous class, for the next term. HAHAHA. I'm so depressed. Really. I lost all the good mood to go to school already. Guys, I'm gonna miss you all, a damn lot. HUWAAAAAA~ :'((

Happy Birthday

2011-07-14T01:21:00.002+07:00

I know it's too late for me to say this to him, because, his birthday is July 13th, and it was happened yesterday. But still, happy birthday, study well, and.. please gain some weight, you are kinda too thin for a teenage boy these days. Take care, and God blesses you always :')

Holiday

2011-07-05T23:37:00.002+07:00

Hullo-ullo-lu people!

Right now I'm in the middle of holiday--or should I call it holey-days.

Well, I'm supposed to enjoy this holiday, and I really did and do want to enjoy this holiday, but the fact is giving me such a cold shoulder. You see, I just gained one-two kg in the first 2 weeks. OH HOLY CRAP. And, I feel that 1 PM is just so damn similar to 9 am, very identical, it's so hard for me to tell the differences. Aaaaaand, the bed is so fuckin' contagious, like drugs.

Not to mention the shining moon which just out-shined the sunshine in the big match of WHICH IS SHINER IN MAKING DWINA AWAKE, or something like that. Crap with words.

Okay, that's all. Out of bore-doom, and in to abyss, I sincerely say ANYEONG!

HDMI

2011-06-25T18:32:00.003+07:00

Harry and Draco Making-love Intimately.

Okay, this is just sooooo random. I know. Hahaha.

Ignore me.

GET A LIFE!!

2011-06-23T01:15:00.005+07:00

Yes people. Now, I'm like a fuckin' goddamn desperate person wanting to shout this so fuckin' out loud to some fuckin' particular people:

GET YOURSELF A FUCKIN' LIFE AND SCREW YOUR FUCKED UP LIFE SOMEWHERE FUCKIN' AWAY FROM ME!

BECAUSE YOU SEE, ALTHOUGH I SO DESPERATELY WANTED TO IGNORE ALL OF HER BITCHING, BUT STILL, THEY STILL GOT ON MY NERVES. I KNEW IT AIN'T MY FUCKIN' BUSINESS AND I GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH HER BITCHING BUSINESS, BUT!

Oh I just couldn't help it. I so wanted to smack that shitty disdainful face of her (and still do, really). Or maybe, a Cruciatus might do the little work, for what? For bringing her back to reality, just so she can realize who the hell she is.

She somewhat envied me, and whatever the reasons were, just screwed her. Last time I checked, I haven't envied her yet. Well, was there really any WORTHY thing in her that I should be getting envious at? Ha. Ha. Ha.

She thought she had the upper hand. Did she? Let's ask Dr. Drew Blender, her psychiatric.

Sincerest thanks I bid.

And of course, deepest apologize for all the swearing words, they ain't appropriate, I know, but look here, I needed to pass this stressful mind of mine somewhere, and this is my blog and no one really reads it anyway, so who cares? Anyway, I'm sorry.

Dream High

2011-06-11T11:34:00.005+07:00

HELLOOO EVERYONE!!

Okay, I'm back after the long awaited *wink*

So, people, I just watched this Korean drama titled 'Dream High'. And truthfully, it was great. The casts, the meaning, the songs, all of them were great! At first I didn't want to watch it, because, that time, I thought that this film was just about silly teenage romances, just like any other dramas. BUT! Yes, I mean no. This was also about romance, but for me, it gave me another meaning, it was all about dreaming high and how we need to make it happens.

This film taught me how to get up, how to go out from the darkness. How to live up. This film taught me for not giving up, no matter what. Because even if the possibility is only 0.00001%, that's still the possibility. And if we hit a big boulder, let's not turn our back, but go through it, break it to pieces, and turn it to a bridge which can allow us to go to the next step.

And thus, if we thought that we're the only one who needs to bear all the burden and misery, just remember that we are not alone. We're not the most miserable . And if someday we encounter such situation, remember that, people out there--near or far from us--maybe more miserable than us, but they can overcome the miseries and get to achieve their dreams. They don't just mourn and feel depressed, they get up, they struggle hard, they overcome all the obstacles, they win over their weaknesses, they are the 'people' we now know, they'll be the 'people' we know in the future.

Well, this ain't all, but at least I this is what I could absorb from the film.

We all need to dream, to have the great passion. We need to chase the dreams, give our best shots to make them real. Because only then we have the meaning of this life.

DREAM HIGH, PEOPLE!

nb: Kim Soo Hyun is so cute, people! Wait no more, watch it! GYAAAAAA SAM DOOOONG!! *fangirling*

Efforts Make Scores

2011-05-10T10:40:00.003+07:00

Well, as for today, I'd like to talk about scores. Yes, scores. The same kind as marks, results. In numbers, of course. Usually they are given in 1-100 scales.

So, what about this 'scores' that's so interesting that I eventually chose for this entry topic?

It's the efforts, actually, that I've taken interest, the very efforts which people give to achieve their scores.

For example, if people study hard and then they achieve good scores, then it's as normal as a sunny day in summer. I mean, that's just as it is. So if people don't study at all, they deserve to get such low scores. And if they only give little efforts, then it's normal to achieve average scores or even lower.

But the thing is, the efforts make the last results. It's the efforts that get scored.

That's why, sometimes I get confused when people hide the fact that they've studied hard to achieve such good scores. Why bother to do that? So others will think they are geniuses? Or they want to act like smart-asses? Seriously, people! Because IMO, just IMO, people who don't study but get such good scores, then they have to be questioned, just how come?

Okay, so be it.

Remember people, efforts make scores!

P.E

2011-04-30T14:26:00.003+07:00

Yes, P.E as in Physical Education, or O.R as in Olahraga (Indonesian). And so, what the hell is wrong with that? The thing is, how should I put it... I can't keep up with that subject, especially when it comes to practical stuff. God I swear am a complete idiot.

That's why, sometimes I can't help myself but confront the logic of the curriculum basis for this P.E matter. How come this subject classified as one of the importances whereas I can hardly see why? Why must we master most of the techniques in basketballshit, volleyballasshole, badmintonbitch, soccersuck, or whatsoever in that term, while perhaps not even one of them is our future dream?

WHY?

Can someone give me a rather reasonable reason? Or maybe two? Three? Four? Or maybe fuckin five?

Let me tell you something. I don't buy such reasons like:

'Because it is so fun to do'. Hello guys, how can I call burning myself under the radiating ultraviolet and letting myself be the last in the team as something 'fun to do'? I must be fuckin sick mentally for let alone THINKING myself be the shit and still call the day as 'day' not 'die'.

'Because it can make us healthy'. Do you know the lovely ultraviolet can make you suffering from skin cancer?

'Because everybody loves it, it's fun, and it's healthy.' What a whore, bitch. I'm so near as to call the P.E 'PERFECT EVIL'.

So, what I'm trying to say is that not every single soul in this world fuckin' loves this P.E thing. For example, me. I don't get it why I must be forced to master the technique when actually NEVER ONCE in my life I put even a little tiny bit of becoming an athlete whatsoever. But the school forces me to, or else I won't be going to the next grade. And I the fuckin hell don't get it why.

Really I wish someone with a very understanding and pitying mind will read this post and kindly sympathetic with my poor condition, and maybe, will kindly find a way to help me in this critical state.

Thank you.

And big sorry for the lots of swearing words.

Lucky!

2011-04-09T19:56:00.002+07:00

Yeah, I definitely am one of the lucky people in this world. As for why? As for I'm not committed in any kind of lovey-dovey relationships right now :D

Eh, but don't be mistaken, it's not like I don't want to, but... let's just say it's not the proper time for me to. I know you may want to say that I am a hypocrite myself for saying that, or maybe I'm just bluffing because no one ever confessed to me. Don't take me wrong, guys.

Enough of that. Now let's move to the main course.

Hmm, but first... I'll make a brief explanation for the background of the situation I'll talk later.

Well you see, both me and ma sis live out of our hometown. However, we still go back to home at weekend. Friday we go back to home and Sunday we go back to our own (let's just say) school town. So yeah, another thing, my sister has already had a boyfie. And, okay, another thing (again) my dad loves watching F1 (Formula 1) and MotoGP, he won't buy losing one time for not watching any of them. He just so damn loves them. He'll turn blind eyes to whatever we (the rest of the fam) have to do if whatever we have to do are crossing path with his dear F1 or MotoGP.

So... Just now, my sis and dad had a little fight.

She wanted us to go back earlier tomorrow, at about 1-2 pm. Because tomorrow ma sis and his boyfie will have their 4th anniversary. Now don't think it's 4 years, because it's only 4 months, forgodsakereally. They planned to have a date, and not to mention, getting all lovey-dovey, too. From noon, till evening, I supposed. Yeah yeah, lovebirds nowadays, like you don't know *rolleyes*

(oh another reason I believe, she said she has some school tasks that needed to be done with her friends tomorrow, or something like that, I forgot)

Buuuuuut...

My dad said that we couldn't, because he already had his own schedule for tomorrow. Of course as you can guess by now, yeah, there you go, the F1 thing.

Ha!

That's when the commotion happened. She argued that we MUST go back earlier but she didn't say the reason why. It's not like she didn't want to, I guess, it's that she couldn't say it. Because at the end of their mouth-war, dad said something like "it's okay if you don't want, just go back alone tomorrow" in respond to my sis "how dare you doing anything as you like but not considering anyone's".

Long story short, now ma sis is in a really really bad mood.

Finally, do yo get the point what I've been trying to tell to you all by saying all this stuffs?

Strange

2011-04-08T20:12:00.002+07:00

Terkadang gue merasa gue melakukan hal-hal yang aneh, hal-hal yang gue sendiri ngerasa gue kok kayaknya gak mungkin melakukan itu.

Well actually it was not that strange for most people, well I even thought that they might say the things I called strange were just pretty simple. But as for me, uhh, how should I put it? It felt like "Who the hell moved my body? Because I definitely didn't but.. I moved, I did it." And I couldn't believe it myself.

If you wonder what I meant, it was like earlier, when I was walking upstairs and looking around at my living room I noticed that there was a black plastic bag lied there, in the middle. You must know, I didn't intend to take it and just continued going upstairs. But somehow, I didn't know why, seriously believe me, I turned around and.. I took it and brought it with me upstairs, eventually.

Well, don't you think it's just strange? Because I do, I did, I.. whatever I just thought it was strange. And now, I'm thinking about how many times already that I've ever done the same thing?

Stupid

2010-12-31T13:11:00.002+07:00

Well, I warn you this is gonna be pretty short and.. absurd. Or well yeah you can think whatever you want though.

Have I finally become senile that I cannot feel the joy in loving somebody like.. when I see him it's like my world is only about him, ..while in fact I'm still in my youth? Oh My God. Frankly, I'm afraid I won't ever feel the bliss of loving again, because.. I.. well, never mind. Something must have gone wrong in my precious head. Sigh.

This life of mine is so boring. It's like a monochrome world.

The Early Bird Catches The Worm

2010-12-01T15:42:00.003+07:00

Lama banget dah ini blog kaga gue update-update lagi. Alasannya banyak kenapa gue gak update. Satu, gak ada topik (ini post juga gue jamin topiknya ngalor-ngidul). Dua, koneksi internetnya sangat sangat suangaaat terbatas. Ketiga, SMA menguras semua tenaga, waktu, dan pikiran gue sampe ketulang-tulang.

And, do you know what's the worst thing?

Gue sekarang aja udah masuk hari keempat UAS ganjil. Niatan masuk IPA, nilai-nilai pelajaran IPA gue kebanyakan sih pas-pasan, kalo ga ya kurang dari standar. Masih lebih bagusan nilai IPS gue, tapi gue gak mau masuk IPS, karena gue ngejar masuk Tkenik Industri enatr kalo kuliah.

And then, there's the dream. Get an overseas scholarship.

Is there still enough time left for me to make up to all these messed up things? Well, the early bird catches the worm. So... the end. I believe that by now you can figure it out--about what I'm probably going to do next.

Be seeing you.

LIZARD

2010-09-20T00:02:00.005+07:00

This shitty lizard made me all exhausted this night, and not only me, but the others too. Because you see, I was so determined to shoo this shitty lizard but I was so MUCH afraid and my legs were all trembling, so, I needed help in order to shoo this shitty lizard.

It took more or less an hour and a half to finish all the task. From the shooing task until the killing task. HA HA HA. Well, to be honest. until now, until the moment I am still writing this post, I'm still afraid and trembling, and so my heart is still racing, all because of that shitty lizard.

Fortunately, this shitty lizard is already dead, and now it is buried peacefully in the garbage can in front of the house. BANZAI! KAMPAI! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

Below is the picture of the lizard, I capture it immediately after realizing the position of that shitty lizard and me was so NEAR. Of course I capture it after I jumped to my bed, I wouldn't dare to capture it in a close distance...

I still couldn't believe it myself that the shitty lizard was there, in my bed room, on the wall, hanging like it didn't have any sin, innocently scared me to death. It didn't move for a quite long time (hmm.. about 15 minutes? I don't know the exact time, but somewhere around there, I guess) even though I didn't stop screaming. It glued still on the wall, ignored my screaming.

Okay, so last but not least, I want to say BIG THANK YOU for this following persons, who helped me out in vanishing the shitty lizard:

1. Ci Vani --> She was the first person who took action in shooing the shitty lizard from the wall. Well, her first intention was to kill the lizard using Baygon, but it turned out that she failed to kill it, but hey, SHE MADE THE SHITTY LIZARD GOT DIZZY. Hahaha :D

2. Ci Missy --> Honestly, she was as afraid as me, but she encouraged me and the others to kill the shitty lizard. She offered me the 'electric racket' (I don't know what the real name is, but I know it's used in killing mosquitoes with electricity) to kill the shitty lizard, but hey, it was no use 'cause I was so afraid to be near the shitty lizard. Oh, and she was the one who checked for the last time whether the shitty lizard already dead or still alive. She stepped on the dead lizard just to make the already-dead-lizard even more dead B-)

3. Ci Mira --> She was the one who succeeded in bringing the half-dead-shitty-lizard out of my bed room! YEAAAAAAH XD

4. Ci Chika --> Actually, she did nothing that directly involved in shooing 'till killing the shitty lizard. But, you can count her solidarity in accompanying us from the start till the finishing action.

Okay, that's all. So long everyone!

Old Days in Junior High :'(

2010-09-16T13:00:00.007+07:00

This video recorded back there when I was still a 9th grader. The main actresses were: Cindy Cannata, Valerie Suwardi, and me. While the one who did the recording was Diah Pastikarini.

Yeah, a random video, consist of several crazy acts from Cindy Cannata and Valerie Suwardi. What about me? I was the victim of their craziness. Hahaha :))

This is a "confession of love" video from Cindy Cannata to her once beloved boyfriend, Daniel Rico (I'm just kidding :p hahaha don't take it seriously). Me? I was just a figure actress :p wkwk. That's all. Oyeah, as usual, the one who did the recording was Diah Pastikarini.

Do you notice how weird she is when she is saying "APA KATANYA?!" hahaha :)) PEACE! ^^V

oho, almost forgot, as usuaaaaaal, the one who did the recording was none other than Diah Pastikarini. Oh, she loves doing this kind of thing, seriously -__-

So that's all for now. I wonder whether you may want to know more about Cindy Cannata, Valerie Suwardi and Diah Pastikarini. Well, if you really wish to know more about them, simply click on their names, and follow them on Twitter :) Or you can visit their blogs, just look for the links on the right side of my blog in the COLLEAGUES box.

Ja, so long!

UTS

2010-09-13T21:45:00.005+07:00

JADWAL UTS GANJIL

Tahun 2010 - 2011

SMAK PENABUR GADING SERPONG

Kelas X

sebagai berikut:

Selasa, 21 September 2010

Matematika

Kewarganegaraan

Rabu, 22 September 2010

Kimia

Teknologi Informasi dan Komunikasi

Kamis, 23 September 2010

Fisika

Olahraga

Jumat, 24 September 2010

Biologi

Pendidikan Kristiani

selang tiga hari dulu yeeeeey :D kemudian lanjut lagi...

Senin, 27 September 2010

Bahasa Indonesia

Ekonomi

Selasa, 28 September 2010

Bahasa Inggris

Geografi

Rabu, 29 September 2010

Sosiologi

Mandarin

dan sampailah pada hari terakhir...

Kamis, 30 September 2010

SEJARAH

Yep. Selama delapan hari lamanya gue harus bertempur melawan musuh gue si soal-soal UTS, cuma dengan modal senjata kertas ulangan, pensil/pulpen, penghapus karet/tip-x, dan... otak.

Jadi gue udah susun strategi. Yeah. Jarang loh gue susun strategi dulu sebelum mulai tempur, biasanya gue langsung maju ke medan perang tanpa persiapan strategi yang pasti. Asal maju aja gak pake mikir. HA HA HA ... entah mengapa gue bangga banget loh.

Oke, jadi gini strategi gue.

Berhubung besok gue mau nginep di kost aneki gue sampe hari Jumat entar, gue kan harus bawa buku pelajaran supaya keliatan gue mau belajar (secara jaminan gue dibolehin nginep itu gara-gara gue bilang gue PASTI belajar di sana -__- oh maaaaaan!). Nah, tapi kan gue juga gak mau bawa buku berat-berat tapi gak guna. Jadi, gue bawa buku-buku yang bener-bener bakal gue baca (bukan pelajari).

Buku-buku tersebut antara lain adalah:

1. Buku tulis MATEMATIKA + soal-soal logaritma dari Pak Weye

2. Buku paket + buku tulis KEWARGANEGARAAN

3. Buku soal-soal latihan + buku tulis + kertas-kertas catatan KIMIA

4. Handouts TIK

5. Buku paket + buku tulis FISIKA

Lalu sisanya?

Santai bros, gue kan Jumat pulang lagi ke rumah, baru dah entar gue baca (bukan pelajari) buku-buku yang lain. Tapi yang jelas, gue gak bakalan nyicil buat yang minggu selanjutnya (yang hari Senin tanggal 27 September 2010 dst. itu loooh) sekarang. Paling Jumat minggu depan baru gue kejar mati-matian. HA HA HA HA HA. Plis deh, gue kan masih remaja, masih muda dan belia B-) ... apa hubungannya coba -__-

Sekian penjelasan strategi (?) gue untuk mengalahkan musuh-musuh gue si soal-soal UTS sialan, yang sudah gue tulis secara singkat, padat, dan (sedikit) jelas. Semoga gue menang! Yeah! Hidup DWINAAAAA!!

Oke. Cukup.

Fight You Back

2010-08-31T22:00:00.002+07:00

Ini adalah karya super pendek yang gue bikin udah dari lama banget. Pas lagi buka-buka file-file lama, gue ketemu ini. Hahaha... lucu aja sih gue bacanya. Oia, tapi ini emang tadinya mau gue post di blog, tapi kelupaan gitu deh, sampe akhirnya sekarang gue baru inget lagi.

Okay, have a read!

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“Gak usah kayak… tai-lah!”

Gue akhiri kata terakhir dengan cengiran karena gue tahu gue salah diksi—pemilihan kata. Ketika akan mengatakannya gue sebenarnya berpikir dulu, serius! Tapi hati gue, otak gue, dan mulut gue kerjanya tidak sinkron. Jadi, keluarlah kata-kata nista itu. Ya, menjadi nista sekali karena gue yang bilang dan itu ditujukan untuk seseorang.

Suasana di dekat gue jadi tidak enak. Mencekam! Yaa.. walau pun cuma untuk beberapa detik. Tapi yang namanya mencekam ya mencekam dan entah mengapa kartu Jack yang berada di tangan gue terlihat begitu tampan—untuk beberapa detik saja. Pokoknya sangat mencekam sampai yang jelek saja bisa jadi tampan.

“Sekali lagi lu ngomong kayak gitu, gue hajar lu. Gak usah macem-macem ya.”

Heloooooo? Apa-apaan tuh orang? Belagu amat! Gue kan cuma bercanda dan gue enggak benar-benar kepengen untuk mengucapkannya. Jadi, kenapa dia jadi rese gitu? Hahaha. Dia gak sadar diri rupanya. Kayaknya dia sering bilang kalau gue kayak tai. Dan, gue gak bisa marah (baca : kadang-kadang) selain terima saja kata hinaan itu.

Dan sekarang suasana sudah berganti lagi. Yang tadinya mencekam, sekarang lebih mencekam juga diekstra aura permusuhan, dalam selang waktu beberapa detik. Diam. Akhirnya kita melanjutkan permainan kartu 41. Dan gue memendam kekesalan ini sendirian.

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Berlari

2010-08-21T09:22:00.002+07:00

BERLARI

Oleh : Dwina Karina

Aku semestinya berlari tak kenal waktu

Mengabaikan batasan definisi waktu

Menerjang jarum-jarum jam tanpa kelu

Harusnya aku tak peduli dan tak ragu

Aku tak kan sekali berhenti

Aku akan terus berlari

Meski nanti seluruh dunia mulai luput

Meski diiringi bisik maut

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Aku memang hanya daging bernafas

Kehidupan membuat garis wajahku keras

Tak ayal aku menangis deras

Aku hanya ingin terbang bebas dan lepas

Jadi biarkan aku mengepak sayapku

Mencicipi sedikit warna dari langit biru

Merasakan lembut belaian angin menderu

Aku harus pergi mencari arti hidupku

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Kukatakan aku tak akan menyerah..

Tak peduli jika tanganku harus berdarah

Atau sebelah kakiku harus patah

Aku tak akan terjatuh dan goyah

Sekali pun tak akan kukenal kata pasrah

Aku akan terus berlari

Sampai nanti waktu aku mati

Geographic, Chinese, and English

2010-08-20T00:18:00.007+07:00

Today, I'll have Chinese test. Oh, God please grant me some luck. I'm not an expert at this kind of thing. Really, no kidding or such thing. I'm being serious.

And what's even worse? I have Geographic test, too. Very nice.

Well, and.. I do have two homeworks for today. Geographic and English. oh heck.

Below is my half-finished English homework. I did it about (more or less) 15-20 minutes. Pretty long, huh? But what'd you expected from me when you know I did it up in the midnight? Ha ha ha.

(front)

(back)

I'm trying to fall asleep right now.

So long!

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this is only additional, but would you like to click here? Thank you so much! God bless!

A Little Note From Me

2010-08-16T19:42:00.006+07:00

Tinggal beberapa jam lagi menuju tanggal 17 Agustus 2010. If you don't know what's so special on that day, lemme' tell you. Tomorrow Indonesia, my--yeah lovely (oh gross!)--country, will be 65 years old. Hooray. Banzai. Oh please, c'mon, give me a little more enthusiastic cheers. Ok, forget it.

So, the purpose of writing this post is, definitely, only one. And, if you wonder what the purpose is, I'll tell you briefly: I'm kinda lonely at the moment I'm writing this damn post. Huh? You asked something more reasonable? THAT REASON IS REASONABLE, mind you.

Grrr. My head is full with craps right now. The way I'm thinking right now is terribly lame. So don't expect me to post something "wow". I'm lonely and I (probably) lack of ideas right now. So yeah, this post is actually kinda mellow. I hate it myself, but no shits.

Oh really, it's not like I'm not used to be lonely, it's just.. sometimes, even a loner want to shout out loud that he/she is pretty lonely.

Errr.. yeah that's all. I'll continue doing my stuff that has been postponed while I was writing this post. Eh if you ask me what is that, I'll give you an answer by showing the picture below this and you'll have to interpret this yourself, what I'm doing. However, if you don't want to, I don't force you to. Relax, no offense guys.

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This is only additional, but if you'd like, why don't you try to click here :) Thanks!

PERFECTION

2010-08-08T13:25:00.002+07:00

Iseng aja gua ngepost beginian.. hahaha :D

bikinan sendiri looh~ ihiy >> bangga amat ya gua -_-

Senior High School

2010-08-07T19:22:00.002+07:00

Moshi-moshi, minna-san!

Hisashiburi!

Sekalinya gua nge-post udah lewat sebulan lebih dari postingan sebelumnya -_- gua emang pemalas.. dalam segala hal. Can't help it though :p so just let it be ha ha ha.. oh Jesus, how can I have a bright future if I keep on living like this.. being a lazy-bum ? -_- saaa~

Oke, cukup buat pembukaannya.. uh, thought I don't think that it was appropriate :P

So, from (more or less) one month ago until today onwards, I'm officially a senior high schooler, and.. I'm not that proud. Instead, I feel strange, now that I am. Well, maybe that's because, no one looks familiar to me. New faces spread all over the school, which means, I know no one. Sad, huh? Oh, also, to make matter worse, I have some difficulties in self-adapting in a completely new environment. Very sad, huh?

Yeah, first time I stepped my foot on the school, I felt like I was a complete stranger that came from a totally strange place.

But that's all, time flies, and now, everything is progressing by itself and becoming much better, though some bad things also happened during the progress.

All, I can do for now is only praying to Jesus Christ so He will always guide me in my life span.

Fear

2010-06-24T17:44:00.003+07:00

"And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless"

Over My Head - The Fray

New Days Come Soon

2010-06-21T21:47:00.002+07:00

Sebentar lagi bulan Juli, dan itu artinya gua akan segera memulai masa-masa kelas 10 gua di SMAK BPK Penabur Gading Serpong. Kabar yang gua denger sih, gua akan masuk pada tanggal 9 Juli 2010, hari Jum'at.

Sehubungan dengan segeranya gua masuk sekolah, itu artinya gua akan segera pindah ke kost-an, dan artinya : farewell Cilegon (meski gua tiap minggu pasti pulang karena ada les hari Sabtunya +_+) and my buddies.

Tapi, sejujurnya, gua gak merasa sedih sama sekali karena akan meninggalkan itu semua. Instead, gua gak ngerasa apa-apa. Seneng enggak, sedih juga enggak.

Entahlah, gak tau gua nya yang emang cold-hearted atau emang gua gak ngerasa ada perasaan yang sangat berarti buat mereka, perasaan yang sangat mendalam sebagai teman sampe-sampe gak ketemu sehari aja dunia gua kayak udah mau ancur, enggak, gua gak punya perasaan kayak gitu. Please deh, gak jaman kali, lagian lebay abis kayak gitu mah.

Jadi, poin pentingnya adalah : gua gak ngerasa apa-apa.

Tapi... gua jadi heran, kok orang lain bisa ngerasa yang gak gua rasain? Apa mungkin gua jadi gak ngerasa kehilangan karena gua tahu there's no one would miss me?

Yeah, maybe like that. Eh, and it's not like I hope someone would miss me. I'm not a weakling, y'know. =___=

Lalu, yang selanjutnya,

Gua pengen cepet-cepet masuk sekolah. Bukannya gimana, tapi, karena alasan pribadi dan sangat privasi--cuma gua dan Tuhan aja yang tahu, gua mengambil keputusan, kalau segera masuk sekolah adalah hal yang terbaik.

Tadinya gua males karena masuknya cepet banget, tapi, setelah gua pikir-pikir, ada bagusnya juga kalo gua masuk sekolahnya cepet.

Oke,

Gini aja postingan kali ini, karena gua gak tahu mau nulis apaan, sementara blog udah terbengkalai agak lama.

Mungkin, blog ini bakal gua update bulan depan, dan tentunya dengan isi yang gak kalah gak pentingnya dengan yang ini. Ha ha ha. But, who cares? No one reads this anyway :p

Ne, so long.

The Title is Whatever You Want

2010-06-05T02:06:00.003+07:00

I know I'm such a lazy girl. So, I'll just make it short and fast. Hehehe~

1. I'm a step closer in becoming a high-schooler XD

2. My class's going to hold some-kind of farewell party in Mambruk, Anyer. I'm excited!

3. I know, it's already out of date but.. I wanna tell you that my team--Cindy, Dian, and I, was the 3rd winner at LCT IPA SMANDAKS 2010. Yeah, we got Rp 400.000, but we still had to divide it for the three of us =__=

4. My National Exam result : 36.2, which means my average score is 9.05 .. it's not that I ain't grateful, it's just that I'm a bit disappointed -__-

5. I'll take my high school uniform on June 16th or 17th or 18th or 19th, along with the textbooks.

6. I'm going to perform my guitar playing on June 13th.. at BRAVO Cilegon. The song I'll play is Yesterday from The Beatles. I'm still a dummy though -__- Can I really perform? I wonder if my fingers are going to shake like crazy when I perform *sigh*

7. I'm so fond of archery and ballistic, and also wizardry. They are just cool, pretty cool!

8. Oyeah, I just remembered that my sis now is 20 y/o, and soon I'll be 16. Oh time really does fly, huh?

9. Do I have to post in English? What about in Indonesian instead of English?

10. Well, umm.. I'll just try harder to improve my English.

One more thing, could you please do me a favor by visiting Hey Hood! and give me a feedback? Hehehe :) I really appreciate it if you do so!

Hm.. OWARI :D

NOISY

2010-04-27T01:03:00.002+07:00

Ah terserah deh. Bawel lu. Heran gua. Masih aja ngurusin urusan orang lain. Haaa~

Take a deep breath.

Okay, so be it.

JUST SAY ALL YOU WANT!

OWARI

Hari Kartini dan Alasan Gue Sempet Lupa

2010-04-21T20:22:00.002+07:00

Sejujurnya nih, gue baru sadar kalo ini hari Kartini pas gue nonton TvOne tadi pulang sekolah =___= jadi, kalo gue gak nonton, kemungkinan besar sampai sekarang gue bisa gak sadar kalo hari ini hari Kartini =___=

I was so bad, wasn't I?

Padahal gue itu wanita juga, harusnya ini jadi hari kebesaran buat gue dan kaum wanita Indonesia lainnya. Tapi apa mau dikata kalo gue sempet lupa(meski pun akhirnya ngeh juga)? Ini semua--gue yakin--terjadi karena UAS sialan yang lagi gue hadapi bersama-sama anak kelas 9 lainnya di sekolah gue tercinta SMP MARDI YUANA CILEGON Jl. Panglima Polim No. 51 B.

Gimana mau inget hari Kartini, kalau jawab soal IPS sama JASA aja gue gak bisa!

Hari ini sungguh hari yang berat.

Sejauh ini, gue udah suffered gara-gara KTK, IPS dan JASA. Gue prediksi, besok PENJASKES, gue akan sama suffered-nya. AWRGH DAMMIT!!

Oiyah, gue mau cerita sesuatu, mengenai perjuangan gue buat nonton DRRR!

So, here goes the story..

Jadi, kemaren itu, gue akhirnya beli animonsu yang bulan april, begitu sampe di rumah, makan , mandi, bla bla bla, sampailah pada saat niatan gue udah mau bobo siang, tiba-tiba gue teringat sama animonsu gue. So, sebelum bobo, gue putuskan untuk baca dulu deh tu majalah.

long story short, sampailah gue pada halaman yang ada artikel DRRR! nya.. terus gue baca. Kebetulan gue emang udah ngincer lama buat nonton ni anime, tapi baru kesampean download manga-nya doang.

Tanpa pikir panjang, langsung gue nyalain si probook item > log in Dwina > buka Google Chrome > langsung ngacir ke Google.com > ketik "durarara! episode 1 english sub watch online" > digiringlah gue buat nonton online drrr! episode 1 english sub > LOADING VIDEO.

Rencananya, mau gue record pake realplayer, ternyata UNABLE TO RECORD terpampang di kotak dialog realplayer recording bla bla bla nya. Frustasilah gue jadinya.

Terus, gue liatlah itu ada tab mirror download. Langsung tancap gas gue. Di situ ada beberapa pilihan link buat download, tapi gue pilih yang torrent-nya. Biar cepet, sekalian aja gue download torrent episode-episode selanjutnya.

Setelah itu, gue aktifkan layar desktop gue, gue bukalah uTorrent, pencet icon Add File(s), bla bla bla, sampailah akhirnya pada proses download. Untuk percobaan, gue download 3 episode dulu. Dan, you know what, ketiga-tiganya berukuran lebih dari 300 MB. Total-total 1 GB nyampe =___=

Yaudah, gue tungguin tuh download'an, dari sore... lanjut ke malem .. sampe tadi pagi.

BANZAAAAI~

...eits.

Banzai yang tadi harus gue buang jauh-jauh.. karena.. GUE SALAH DOWNLOAD!

1. Video yang gue download formatnya .mkv .. jadi gue harus download mkv player dulu. Beruntung ada yang freeware. TAPI, begitu gue play video-nya, mkv player nya gila. Kenapa gila? Soalnya enggak kompatibel sama theme yang vista, jadi kepaksa dipindah ke theme yang classic dan .. bikin laptop gue jadi lemot dan tulalit.

2. Video yang gue download, ENGGAK ADA SUBTITLE ENGLISH-NYA!!

Jadi, intinya gue buang-buang 1 GB dan seharian penuh untuk kesia-siaan belaka.

Akhirnya pagi ini, gue habiskan untuk frustasi mencari-cari file sub english buat durarara!

O MY G. No wonder why I forgot about Kartini's day.

Benar-benar hari yang melelahkan hari ini.

Namun, beruntungnya, gue akhirnya menemukan situs yang menyediakan link-link untuk mendownload Durarara! yang ber-sub english dengan ukuran file yang gak terlalu besar dan formatnya bukan cuma .mkv :D

Ah senangnya~

Tapi. Tapi. Tapi. Besok penjaskes. Dan gue mau mati mikirinnya.

Benar-benar hari yang sangat-sangat MELELAHKAN *hiperbolis*

Hmm..

so be it.

OWARI :D

Ini Bukan Pelarian

2010-04-20T19:03:00.002+07:00

Ini bukannya perlarian

Kuberitahu ini hanya sebatas penghiburan

Untuk menghapus kemungkinan penyesalan

Yang jika ada tak tahu kapan terselesaikan

Karena terkadang lelah juga perasaan

Jika ada itu penyesalan

Harus ada pergantian

Sebelum semuanya hilang berlarian

Dan sisanya tambah tak karuan

Dan aku sudah terlampau kelelahan

Untuk membereskan semua yang berantakan

Tak mampu aku selesaikan

Dan datang itu penyesalan

Meski hanya kemungkinan

Harus ada pergantian

Kubilang ini bukan pelarian

Hanya sebatas pada penghiburan

Alternatif lain untuk melepas kegundahan

HELLO

2010-04-20T13:52:00.003+07:00

Hmm.. long time no post .. so, guess that a "hello" might do something to crack out the awkwardness *giggle*

So, yeah, hello Readers (if there's any, of course)!

First thing first, I need to tell you that I'm kinda busy lately, so, I don't have much time to update my blog. I had that stupid nation exam, which prevented me from doing anything I'd like to do as my usual course--in this case, having fun with my lovely laptop =__=. So, long story short, exam made me old and pitiful and super bored. Heck that stupid exam! AWRGH

Okay so..

Actually, there's a lot of things I want to talk about, just, don't know where to start. Hmm.. so, I'll begin with.. what?

1. I am so addicted to Katekyo Hitman Reborn! now. Hahaha XD Just can't stop giggling over Hibari-chan!

2. I am so excited in Durarara! now. This anime is totally rockin'. I love Izaya. He is just .. unhateable with that kind of personality (well, ya' know, I'm just a bit weird) 8D

3. I'm still a yaoi lover :D and I don't have any plan to retire yet.

4. I've already got my first holy communion on April 2nd, 2010. BANZAAAI~ I felt like.. yeah XD

5. I worry about my final score for that stupid heck national examination. AWRGH. Dammit =__=

6. Someone stole my class money from me, and you know, luckily, the burglar got Rp 200.000 for his/her criminal, while I found myself suffered to take responsibility for that stolen money. Oh jerk. Well, my mom's going to help me, but .. seriously.. I don't feel at ease, ya' know =__=

7. I still hate them, yeah, but much lesser. I guess, don't care about them at all, is the best way to keep going. Yeah, why the heck do I have to care about them? Pain for my ass =3=

8. I don't know whether my english is improving or not, but.. I hope it is improving, because if it is not, then.. I'm a loser.

9. I'm going to let my hair grow a bit longer :D My sis said that it'll be good. So, why not? Hehe

10. I'm still a bad girl with no money (definitely because of that cursed burglar!) =__= AAA LIFE IS SO CRUEL.

To tell you the truth, I still have some business to take care of, such as.. school exam etc. Yeah, Hades still doesn't want to let me go, the exam isn't finished yet. Oh cursed. =__=

So be it.

OWARI

Definetely Useless and Crazy--The Result is : UKE

2010-03-21T19:37:00.004+07:00

You are a Clueless Uke!

Having a good time is what you're all about. You're satisfied just to have someone to eat hamburgers and play video games with, and are completely oblivious to other's manipulative behavior. You don't expect much, and that can be a good thing. You're perfect prey for the Opportunist Seme, who might take advantage of you, but you probably won't even notice, or really care, as long as you're enjoying yourself.

Most compatible with: Opportunist Seme, Romantic Seme

Least compatible with: Sadistic Seme, Don't Fuck With Me Seme

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com, or find merchandise here.

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Are You Seme or Uke @ Quizfarm.com

You Scored as Uke

You are uke; they say, you obey.

Uke

80%

Seme

45%

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Ultimate Yaoi-level selector!

Your Result

Angsty Uke You are -40% Seme!

Yes. You are the angsty uke. Seldom smiling and probably persimistic, you are not likely to put in too much effort to give your seme pleasure. You probably have an unhappy past which you tend to brood on whether intentionally or not. Sometimes your angst tends to add unwanted weight to a relationship, but it also adds a certain level of excitement. The relationship may be against your will... but try to look on the bright side. if there is a bright side

Most compatible with: Tyrant (for good old SM fun)

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Well.. first thing first.. This is only for fun. I've got nothing to do so.. yeah.. I did it--took out several seme-or-uke quizzes :p

Yeah yeah I know those quizzes are supposed to be filled by boys (yeah slash), but who cares? :p

Don't worry, I still am a perfectly normal girl :)

OWARI :D

I've Been Sorted!

2010-02-27T15:48:00.002+07:00

Congratulations on making Slytherin!

So basically, you're cunning, ambitous, and willing to use any means to meet your ends. Lots of people think Slytherins are cold, evil, heartless people.. and although some are, some are not. Slytherins are the most misunderstood people.. You're not all evil! We're misconceived and misunderstood, and have been given a bad rep.. The movie makes us look terrible. People just have this thing about people about ambition.. Hmm.. Well, you know you're the best, so I guess it doesn't matter. Gryffindor may beat you at everything.. but you still keep trying! COME ON, SHOW SOME SLYTHERIN PRIDE!

Slytherin to Remember

Draco Malfoy

Lucius Malfoy

Tom Riddle aka Lord Voldemort

be sorted @ nimbo.net

Like Me

2010-02-21T23:16:00.003+07:00

It's not like you are my enemy or my accomplice

It's simply something like boss and another sly boss

We are behind a well-covered war..

A place for showing off how well is your boast.

When you think you've got grasp on everything

No you are totally wrong

You don't know how to grasp the pain like I am

Because you are the pain I grasp

Lock you down in my dark side

Wondering if you'll ever try to shine on it

But baby it's no use

No use because you only make it darker

Hey hey the wind is chilling me

Maybe disorienting my mind too

You may say I'm crazy

Because you know you'll always win over me

I don't have any bazooka like you

What I have is only a tiny pen

I don't have such a big head to start over

What I have is only my hard-to-get-freedom

Do you suddenly feel the stone blocking your way?

No worries, I'm ready to get rid of them

I'm your special opponent

A stupid opponent precisely

You are the star of the show I'm no longer watching

Like you'd care, like I'd care

Mind your business and get the hell outta mine

But I see that you are the star of a shitty-show

It's funny to see things turn out like these

It's not like I regret it

I'm just going to ask something weird

Like.. do you know how to stand like me?

White Hair

2010-01-31T10:28:00.003+07:00

Yay! Finally, I decided to post this entry. Yeap, this is about three COOL guys with white hair :D

Well, I usually prefer to guy with white hair. Don't know why, I just think that most white-hair-guys look so fascinating. Yeah I do love some other guys without white hair. Hahaha.. anyway, I need to tell you this : EVERY WHITE-HAIR-GUYS THAT I LIKE ARE FICTION. Okay? Seriously, I don't like real-guys with white hair. Because it means they are OLD-BONES :P

hmm.. okay that's enouh. Let's review!

1. Riku from Kingdom Hearts

Well, it's not entirely look white, but yeah, white-gray (or whatever) I might say. He has a long hair. Really love this guy! He is the best seme ever. Wakakakak XD Sora you are so lucky!

2. Hitsugaya Toushirou from Bleach

Chibi-shiro, he is the the 10th Captain of Gotei 13. The genius one, he is. His white hair is contrast with his zanpakutou : Hyourinmaru, which is based in snow element. Shiro-chaaaaaan you are totally CUTE when you act so COOL!

3. Kiryuu Zero from Vampire Knight

Huoho.. his bad temper isn't really contrast with his hair, contradict if I say. But, no big deal. He is still handsome and cool :p. The most intriguing uke, in my opinion of course. Hhh.. Kaname-sama, please be patient -__-. Oh, be careful when he rises his bloody rose, anyway.

Nah, farewell guys!

Whatever. Baby

2010-01-29T13:50:00.003+07:00

Now, I understand the reason why you all look so annoying in my eyes. The answer is pretty simple. Because you all are so cagey. So cagey when it comes to defeat the weakling.

I mean .. c'mon, you are NOT a super-human or whatever, you are just human like any other weakling in your eyes, plain and fragile, and also defeatable.

So, don't act all mighty. Just for your information, I never wish to know you and be fooled by you, and defeated by you.

God holds the justice, you IDIOT-baby :p.

A Broken Mirror

2010-01-27T19:25:00.003+07:00

It broke to pieces and sharp on the edges

It won't be fixed and it will only going to hurt

But you cried as much as nothing

You bleed and injured and you were being hard

No you were not a weakling

A shattered skin won't do you a big deal

But you cried as much as nothing

You knew you were below those shadows

It was all about your heart

The thing you dear so and it's broken now

And you cry as much as nothing

Feeling blue like there won't be no tomorrows

You were a broken mirror back then

A stubborn-head you were

And you cried as much as nothing

And now there is no going back

Yeah you ARE a broken mirror

Separated in pieces and shattered

You bleed and you regret it

But no you are still a broken mirror

Baby look at your eyes

It gets me right in the center

And your eyes cry as much as nothing

A silent hatred in every broken pieces

My 2010 Wish List

2010-01-16T19:03:00.004+07:00

I wish I could play guitar well by the end of year.

I wish I'll get a new handphone at July.

I wish I get good scores for every UAN subjects.

I wish my report card will make me satisfied--I mean good scores are all over it.

I wish I'll have a lot of good friends once I move to my new school.

I wish my skin will be whiter than now.

I wish all acnes on my face will disappear forever, before I move this July.

I wish I'll be taller than now, even for 1 or 2 cm will do DX

I wish my voice won't be so shrill like now.

I wish my english isn't going to be worse--I wish I'll be a good english speaker by the end of year.

I wish I'll have a kindhearted-rich-smart-boyfriend once I move to Serpong. Hahahaha XD

I wish I'm still able to keep up my good performance in my new school-- I mean I can keep up my achievement like in my current school.

I wish I won't be a burden to my family.

I wish my family will be in a good fortune.

I wish God will always bless me, hears my prayers, and grant my wishes :)

I wish everything will be okay, from now on until forever.

I wish I'll be a better person.

I WISH 2010 WILL BE A GOOD YEAR FOR ME AND MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS :)

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p.s Yeah I know it's a bit too late. But still, this is better than not, right?

This is The Second Time

2010-01-14T22:29:00.003+07:00

Ya. Ini kali ke-2 HP gue rusak.

The second time my mobile phone out of order.

Tadinya gue gak mau bilang, tapi akhirnya gue bilang. Dan akhirnya malah gue yang dimarahin.

Sesuai dengan saran orang-orang di sekeliling gue, bilang aja "GAK TAU". Ya, gak tau. Dan akhirnya dengan jawaban yang begitu, gue lah yang dicap bersalah. Padahal, ni hp gak rusak di tangan gue.

Gue gak suka dimarahin kalau bukan karena kesalahan gue sendiri.

Tapi tetep aja, harus gue yang kena marah. Karena gue bilang "gak tau", tentunya gue yang dimarahin. Karena orang goblok mana pun tahu kalau lu ditanyain sesuatu dan bilang "gak tau", berarti lu lagi nyembunyiin kesalahan diri lu. Nah, beda kasus dengan gue. Gue jawab "gak tau" karena orang-orang di sekeliling gue menyarankan gue untuk bilang "gak tau".

Ya, goblok aja sih gue mau ngikutin. Cuma ya, berhubung gue gak mau membuat atmosfer yang kurang nyaman, yaudah, gue terpaksa bilang "gak tau".

Tapi, mungkin ini yang terbaik, karena kalau gue bilang sesuai dengan pengetahuan gue sendiri dan bukan pura-pura gak tau, takutnya gue malah bikin urusan tambah besar.

Sialan aja gue harus pake ni hape sampe gue dibeliin hape baru (yang gak jelas jadi atau enggak-nya).

Hahahaha.

Gue ucapin terima kasih banyak buat yang merasa bertanggung jawab atas rusaknya hp gue untuk yang ke-2 kalinya.

THANKS A LOT BABY! YOU JUST GAVE ME A PIECE OF SHIT.

DEAD GIRL

2010-01-13T20:25:00.005+07:00

When I realize everything is too late

I know there might be no chance no more

When I realize I've gone too far

I know it's too late for coming back down again

Pessimistic is my deadly weapon

And broken-heart triggers it

When no future is my bullet

I know I'm being a loser

I'm afraid to close my eyes and fall asleep

Because under the midnight cave

I still hear your voice echoing

I still hear my heart beating like it's gonna stop soon

I'm a dead girl with no clothes

On a dead way somewhere when the rain falls

Shivering like no sun and no shines

Yeah yeah out of control like drugs

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Nah, gue lagi stres

-___-

10-01-10

2010-01-10T17:57:00.005+07:00

I don't know what's so special on this day. Just.. 10-01-10 reminds me something a bit similar with it, like 12-21-12. Wakakak :p

Gue menyadari hal ini tadi, pas dibilangin temen gue waktu lagi milih-milih foto mana yang mau dicetak. 10-01-10.

Kalo dipikir-pikir, gue sama temen-temen LIA gue selalu berpergian bareng ditanggal yang unik. Waktu itu pas buka puasa bareng tanggal 09-09-09. KEREN! Sekarang foto bareng tanggal 10-01-10. Woow.. hahahha.. mungkin kita emang unik.

Tadi waktu lagi mau foto, kan bagi-bagi souvenir--gantungan dari Jogja (hehehe :D) dari Ms. Kiki, eh .. terjadi suatu insiden! Salah satu gantungannya ada yang rusak, gak sengaja sih. Dan sayangnya itu gara-gara (inget gak sengaja!) Fera.. dan dia sangat menyesal sampai menangis. Menangis looh.. sampai dia jadi gak mau ikutan foto, tapi untunglah akhirnya masalah terselesaikan! HAHAHAHA XD

Apa lagi ya?

Oya.. kita sebetulnya tadi harusnya tuh ngumpul jam dua belas. Tapi yang laen pada ngaret! Tapi gak masalah sih.. yang masalah ya si Harold itu, udah telat, pake acara saltum pula -___- untungnya hal itu bisa diatasi dengan menyuruh Harold balik lagi ke rumahnya buat ganti baju. Tapi tentunya itu membuat kita jadi tambah lama untuk masuk ke acara intinya : FOTO -___-. Yak .. tentunya hal ini terjadi sebelum insiden Fera. Hahaha

Fotonya jadi tanggal 15 Januari nanti.

Huhuhu.. kalo dipikir-pikir, kita bakalan jarang ketemu deh setelah lulus ini. Seneng sih akhirnya lulus setelah mengenyam pelajar bahasa inggris di LIA selama kurang lebih 3 tahun (gue tentunya -__-). Tapi, kita pasti jarang ketemu deh.. hiks.. I'll miss you so guys T__T

Let's have some rendezvous later guys.. hahha.. of course on unique date! hahhaha :D

I'll miss them so.

Okay..

Masuk ke topik laen deh.

Besok senen gue tentunya masuk sekolah lagi. Man.. holiday was already over a week ago -__-. Yap, jadi kembali ke hari senen besok. Besok sekolah lagi dan ditambah bimbel--bimbingan belajar. Adaaau.. males banget. NGANTUK BANGET TAU GAK SEEEEEEH ! Bleh.

Hari ini harus ngapalin pidato Indonesia, tiga halaman. Yap. Gue yang terlalu napsu sih buatnya. Hahaha.. I dug my own-grave.. really and no kidding -__-". Jadi yaa.. mau gak mau haris gue apalin lah itu pidato. Gue yakin kok gue bakal apal asal gue berpedoman pada : ORA ET LABORA! WAKAKAKKA x) ya kan?

Oiya..

Jumat kemaren adalah les gitar perdana gue! Wooow.. jari gue sakit euy. Tapi, no big deal lah. I need to stay strong *weleh kayak mau apa aja* :) Guru yang ngajar gue namanya Opang. Bingung nih gue mau manggil apa. Hahahha. "Om Opang" apa "Ka Opang" yah? Tauklah.. biarkan waktu yang menentukan :p wkwkwk

Hari pertama itu gue diajarin cara baca chords. Terus, gue diajarin 6 chords : Am, C, D, E, F, G.

Susaaaaaaaaaaah DX!

Tapi katanya lumayan kok gue. Hahahha.. dan.. sekarang yang harus gue lakukan adalah belajar maen lagunya D'masiv (gak tau nulisnya gimana.. wkwkwk) yang judulnya Jangan Menyerah dengan hitungan ketukan 1. Rencananya gue mau les dulu ama si Hagi. Wkwkwk

Hmm.. mau tulis apa lagi ya?

Yayaya.. ada ada. Sekarang kalo orang tanya sama gue "cita-citanya apa?" akan gue jawab dengan "Presiden Indonesia". Ya.. hahhaa.. jawaban yang aneh sih. But why not? A dream is a dream and we won't know whether idwt'll come true or not. So, menurut gue gak masalah kalo gue bermimpi buat jadi Presiden Indonesia. Toh, yang penting tujuan gue didasari keinginan yang mulia dan untuk Tuhan Yesus.

Mungkin seharusnya gue buat postingan sendiri yang ngebahas soal ini. Tapi, lain kali aja deh. Sooner or later I will. wkwkwk :P

Hmm..

Okaaay.. so be it.

Dadah :)

Until next time!

2010

2010-01-08T04:13:00.004+07:00

Okay. My mom will seriously get angry if she knows that I'm not sleeping now. But -hahhaha- let's just say that I don't care much about it :p

Nah.

So, what will I say?

Umm.. yeah I know, I should write this on the beginning of 2010 year. Well, the fact is I don't care about what date I should write this. Yeah since the meaning is still the same. Hahaha :)

So, this is my 2010 Resolution : Think like boys would think!

Kinda' weird. Yeah I know. I'm a girl but I want to think like boys. Boy -for me- is the symbol of freedom. Boys.

Boys think rationally, and I really envy it.

Boys think in simple ways, while I always think in complicated ways.

Boys can try everything (I'm not sure about this actually -___-) that girls can't.

Boys don't have to face to menstruation every month like girls.

Boys don't like to cry.

I still have some reasons why, just wanna make this as simple as it can.

Um.. however, even though I write something like this, it doesn't mean I don't care about women emancipation. I do proud to be a girl, but in the same time I do hate the fact that I am a girl. I just hate that girls can be so annoying (well, it means that : I'm a part of it too -___-).

If you wanna know what the reasons behind "why girls can be so annoying" are, just tell me, and I'll send you an email.

Justin Bieber

2010-01-02T16:13:00.007+07:00

Justin Bieber

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Justin Bieber
Bieber in 2009
Background information
Birth name	Justin Drew Bieber
Born	March 14, 1994 (age 15)^[1]
Origin	Stratford, Ontario, Canada
Genres	Pop, dance, R&B, electronic^[2]
Occupations	Singer, songwriter,
Instruments	Vocals, guitar, piano,percussion^[3] ,trumpet^[4]
Years active	2007–present
Labels	Island, RBMG
Associated acts	Usher
Website	Official Website

Justin Drew Bieber (pronounced /ˈdʒʌstɨn ˈbiːbər/; born March 14, 1994)^[5]^[6] is a Canadian pop/R&B^[2] singer. He began his professional career on YouTube, where he was discovered by his future manager, Scooter Braun. Braun flew Bieber to Atlanta, Georgia, to consult with Usher and soon signed a record deal with Island.^[3]

The first part of his two-part^[7]^[8] debut album My World was released on November 17, 2009.^[9] Four successful pre-album singles have been released: "One Time", "One Less Lonely Girl", "Love Me", and "Favorite Girl", which were Top 15 hits on the Canadian Hot 100 and Top 40 hits on the Billboard Hot 100. This accomplishment made Bieber the only artist in Billboard history to have four singles from a debut album chart in the Top 40 of the Hot 100 before the album's release.^[10] The album received positive reviews from critics, and debuted at #6 on the U.S. Billboard 200,^[11] selling 137,000 copies in its first week,^[12] which was the second best opening release for a new artist in 2009.^[7]^[13] Bieber also became the first artist to have all songs from a single album to chart in the U.S. Hot 100^[7]. It also debuted at #1 on the Canadian Albums Chart.^[14] As of the fifth week, the album has sold over 522,000 copies in the United States, and has been certified Platinum in Canada^[15]. Part II of My World is currently set for a March 2010 release.^[7]

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Life and career

Bieber was 12 years old when he entered a local singing competition in Stratford, Ontario, placing in second.^[3] He taught himself how to play the piano, drums, guitar, and trumpet.^[16] In late 2007 Justin and his mother began posting videos on YouTube^[17] so that his family and friends that could not attend his performances would be able to view them, posting his cover versions of songs.^[17] He was soon approached by a Toronto-based company called Rapid Discovery Media, who assisted him in running his YouTube and MySpace accounts, producing, editing and promoting his videos.^[18] After posting his rendition of Chris Brown's "With You", Brown personally called Bieber and congratulated him on his YouTube recognition.^[18]

Scooter Braun,^[17] a former marketing executive of So So Def, discovered his videos, and flew Bieber to Atlanta, Georgia, where he met with R&B singer/songwriter Usher.^[17] A week later Bieber had the opportunity to sing for Usher^[19] who immediately became greatly interested, giving him an audition with Antonio L.A. Reid at Island Records who signed him to Island Records in October 2008.^[17] Justin Timberlake was reportedly in the running to sign Bieber, but he eventually signed with Usher.^[20] Bieber and his mother, Pattie Malette then moved to Atlanta, also the home of Usher and Braun, to base his career. Bieber also stated in an interview he still frequently stays at his Stratford home.^[21]

2009-present: Debut album

Bieber's first album My World, was released on November 17, 2009. The album features guest vocals from Usher, who appears in the music video for the single "One Time". Bieber is on a promotion tour promoting his single and has made various appearances on several radio stations. The first single "One Time"^[22] reached number 12 in Canadian Hot 100 during its first week in July 2009,^[17] and number 20 on the Billboard Hot 100. On September 26, 2009, "One Time" had gone Platinum in Canada.^[23] The single has also been certified Gold in the U.S. by the RIAA^[24] Three consecutive singles, "One Less Lonely Girl", "Love Me", and "Favorite Girl" were released to iTunes exclusively, and therefore charted at within the Top 40 in the U.S. and within the top 15 in Canada. "One Less Lonely Girl" was later released to mainstream radio also.

Bieber performed in a several live shows such as mtvU's VMA 09 Tour, European program The Dome, YTV's The Next Star and The Today Show.^[25]^[16], The Wendy Williams Show, Lopez Tonight, The Ellen DeGeneres Show, It's On with Alexa Chung, Good Morning America, Chelsea Lately, and BET's 106 and Park with Rihanna. Bieber also guest starred in an episode of True Jackson, VP later this year.^[26] In October 2009, Bieber was voted as the #5 "Best Good Example of 2009" by AOL's JSYK.^[27]

While promoting the album, Bieber was scheduled to appear at Long Island's Roosevelt Field Mall, but the performance had to be canceled.^[28]. Over 3,000 screaming fans showed up for the appearance. The event got out of control and over 35 units from the Nassau County and Garden City police departments had to be called in. According to TMZ, a fan screamed that Bieber was in an Abercrombie Kidsstore, and that is when the mayhem already taking place got further out of hand. ^[29] Police feared that the crowd which was cramming the mall's upstairs corridor would force a metal-and-glass railing to snap sending hundreds of girls tumbling to the lower level. ^[28] Several fans received minor injuries The police told Bieber he could not come in because of the current situation and fire hazard. In an interview with WBLI 106.1, Bieber stated, "It was so crazy that I couldn't get to even come in the building," the singer said. "They [the authorities] basically threatened to put me in cuffs and send me away to jail."^[28] The police arrested an Island Records senior vice-president, James A. Roppo, reportedly for hindering the police's crowd control efforts.^[28] Bieber took to Twitter, apologizing to fans, and promising to make up for the cancellation. James Roppo pleaded not guilty to all charges.^[30]^[31]

Bieber performed for President Barack Obama and first lady Michelle Obama at the White House for the Christmas in Washington, a televised musical special that benefits the National Children’s Medical Center, which aired on December 20th on TNT^[32] Bieber performed Stevie Wonder's "Someday at Christmas" at the program. He was also one of the performers at Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin' Eve with Ryan Seacrest on December 31.^[33] To support his debut effort, Bieber toured with Taylor Swift on her two-stop return to the United Kingdom on her Fearless Tour^[34] and went on a five-date tour himself in Canada, sponsored by Urban Behavior.^[35] Bieber confirmed that he will be traveling on his headlining debut tour sometime in 2010^[36] He will also open again for Swift when she performs atGillette Stadium at the annual concert for the winner of the CMA Entertainer of the Year award.^[37]

Filmography

Year	Title	Role	Notes
2009	True Jackson, VP	Himself	Guest star

Discography

Studio albums

Year	Album details	Peak chart positions
Year	Album details	CAN	US	AUT	GER	NL	SWI
2009	My World (Part I) Release date: November 17, 2009 Label: Island Records	1	6	18	18	52	39
2010	My World (Part II) Release date: March 2010^[8]^[7] Label: Island Records	To be released

Singles

Year	Single	Peak chart positions								Album
Year	Single	CAN	US	US Pop	AUS	AUT	BEL (FL)	GER	NL	Album
2009	"One Time"	12	17	14	74	30	12	14	83	My World (Part I)
	"One Less Lonely Girl"	10	16	23	—	54	25	22	—
	"Love Me"^[A]	12	37	—	—	—	—	—	—
	"Favorite Girl"^[A]	15	26	—	—	—	—	—	—
"—" denotes releases that did not chart

Notes

A^ Singles were released digitally exclusively to iTunes.

Other charted singles

These songs were not officially released as singles, but charted after the release of My World (Part I)

Year	Song	Peak positions		Album
Year	Song	CAN	US	Album
2009	"Down to Earth"	61	79	My World (Part I)
	"Bigger"	78	94
	"First Dance" (featuring Usher)	88	99
	"Common Denominator"	72	—
"—" denotes releases that did not chart

Music videos

Year	Song	Director
2009	"One Time"	Vashtie Kola
2009	"One Less Lonely Girl"	Roman White

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Gue copy paste langsung dari wikipedia. Hahahha :D Kalo mau liat yang aslinya, silakan klik di http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Justin_Bieber yak.

HUUOOOOO

JB IMUUT BANGET!

Hahahahha XD

Tanggal Dua

2010-01-02T00:43:00.002+07:00

Gak tau nih mau nulis apa. Hahaha.. tapi pokoknya mau nulis!

Rasanya gue males banget. Maleeeeeees bangeeeeeeeeeeeeet.. sampe gue tiap kali mikirin masuk sekolah rasanya mau nyemplung aja ke got. Ya itu juga mengingat kondisi sekolah yang gak terlalu menarik di mata gue. Aduuh.. males banget deh! Ketemu muka-muka menyebalkan, tugas-tugas menumpuk, capek deh pokoknya!

Terus..

Gue jadi kebebanin sama rasa bersalah. Kenapa? Gampang jawabnya. Karena lomba sialan itu. Tanggal 4 nanti udah lomba, dan gue gak belajar sama sekali, gak ada persiapan sama sekali. Sekarang gue udah yakin 100% pasti para staf pengajar itu gak bakalan jadi daftarin gue lomba, ya kecuali mereka mau mukanya ketimpuk tai gara-gara malu.

Masalahnya, gue jadi merasa bersalah sama dua orang. Nyokap gue sama si Pa Abet.

Nyokap gue karena : gara-gara gue mau diikut sertakan di lomba sialan itu, kita jadi harus potong waktu liburan di Cianjur, padahal nyokap gue itu masih mau liburan di sana. Dan, nyokap gue nepsong nyuruh gue ikut lomba. Sampekan sibuk promosi kemana-mana.. aduuh.. sial bener! =___= sekarang kalau gue gak ikut tuh lomba, mau bilang apa gue ke nyokap gue?

Pa Abet (sebenernya gue gak mau pake "Pa" tapi biar sopan lah =p) : lebih tepatnya bukan bersalah, tapi takut. Ya, takut. Karena? Gampang jawabnya. Karena, gue ngesok gak ikut latihan buat lomba, sementara lombanya tanggal 4 udah mulai. Sebenernya tanggal 31 Desember 2009 kemarin itu, dia sms gue nyuruh latihan di sekolah, tapi gak gue tanggepin.

Gue yakin dia kesinggung sama cara gue itu. Tapi, harusnya dia ngerti dong, gue gak mau ikut lomba. Kenapa gak cari orang laen aja? Salah sendiri 'kan ngotot pake gue, sampe gak sempet cari pengganti gue. Dari awal gue udah kasih sinyal kalau gue males ikut lomba, males dan gak mau. Kalau udah dikasih sinyal gitumah, sadar dong harusnya! Kalau gue di posisi dia, gue sih bakal males banget pake anak yang ngesok dan ogah-ogahan kayak gitu.

Gak tauklah! SIAL EMANG! SEMUANYA SIALAN!!

Liburan udah tinggal bentar lagi, tanggal 6 gue masuk.

Oke selesai. Nyokap gue udah ngamuk. Dah!

HNY-10

2010-01-01T00:19:00.005+07:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Today is the new day in this very new year

hope everything will work better in this year

hope everyone won't be so annoying this year

HOPE WE WILL ACHIEVE A GREAT SUCCESS

KEEP STRUGGLING AND NEVER STOP HOPING

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

EVERYBODY

GOD BLESS YOU ALL

This is the beginning. So, let's start with a good move.

Thanks Jesus Christ for this new year..

thanks for letting us--humankind stand here still

thanks for Your blessing in 2009 so that we can survive and face this new year

Thanks for everything

We hope Jesus will always lead our way

Always enlighten our dark heart

Thanks Father

===AMEN===

once more

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

I'm saying

"GOODBYE FUCKIN' PAST! I SWEAR I'LL ALWAYS BE MYSELF, NO MATTER WHAT! I'LL THROW AWAY THOSE BAD MEMORIES FROM 2009. BECAUSE I'M 2010"

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

S.C.H.O.O.L

2009-12-31T13:24:00.006+07:00

Anak ingusan yang masih duduk di bangku kelas 3 SMP, kayak gue, emang gak punya pilihan lain selain jadi boneka-bonekaan tangan para staf pengajar di sebuah tempat sakral yang biasa terkenal dengan sebutan SEKOLAH.

Ya. Menurut gue, di tempat ini, gue memang cuma dididik untuk menjadi manusia bermoral, beretika, tapi gak bener-bener berilmu. Soal bermoral dan beretika juga sebenernya gue sangsi. Tapi yaa~ at least kan gue masih kasih kata-kata bagus buat menggambarkan opini gue mengenai sekolah.

Overall, ya gue merasa sekolah gue saat ini gak memuaskan. Seenggaknya enggak sememuaskan ketika gue masih di bangku SD atau TK.

I don't know why but.. the school rules, the school environment, the school social-matters, etc.. those kind of things really are drying me up to my bones! I guess I just don't fit too well with this school like any other children. I only focus about my graduation, whether I'll graduate or not. Beside that, out of my reach. But somehow, school doesn't think the same as me. Yeah yeah yeah.. jerks spread all over there.

Well I know this post talks nothing but nonsense.

So, to make this post looks more nonsense I'm gonna write something below :

=====SCHOOL=====

S : Sacral

C : Critical

H : Holy

O : Outstanding

O : Over-everything

L : LAME !

=====SCHOOL=====

Well, of corse this is only a sick joke made by me. Hahahha.. wanna know what they'll say about this? They will probably kick me away and see me like ash. How wonderful it will be~

Sometimes I List

2009-12-31T02:49:00.003+07:00

Sometimes, I don't know what to do.

Sometimes, I just doing nothing worth--like daydreaming.

Sometimes, I don't know what I should write.

Sometimes, I write something harsh.

Sometimes, I write nonsense instead something worth to write.

Sometimes, I mock people through my write.

Sometimes, I don't know why I write something.

Sometimes, I write something good, of course that is only in my opinion.

Sometimes, I just write something I don't really understand the meaning itself.

Sometimes, I just let my fingers write something, without thinking about what I should write.

Sometimes, I don't know what I should say.

Sometimes, I speak a bit fast.

Sometimes, I speak to someone rudely.

Sometimes, I don't say anything when I'm in a bad mood.

Sometimes, people don't understand what I try to say.

Sometimes, people don't hear what I said--they just easily pretend like all they heard just wind.

Sometimes, I think that speaking is a useless activity.

Sometimes, I can't hold back to say something.

Sometimes, I see that speaking is such a hard activity. Hard and useless.

Sometimes, I don't want to speak anything at all--remain silent.

Sometimes, I shake when I have to speak in front of people.

Sometimes, I hate it when people around me speaking so cheerfully and so-damn-loud.

Sometimes, I do love to speak.

Sometimes, I want to speak for the rest of my life, always.

Sometimes, I get tired after speaking so loud, fast, and cheerful.

Sometimes, I don't know what I should think.

Sometimes, I think over something I shouldn't have to think in my age.

Sometimes, I think about my death.

Sometimes, I think about God.

Sometimes, I think about my life.

Sometimes, I think about my friends.

Sometimes, I think about home. A perfect home that I'd never reach.

Sometimes, I get scared after thinking too much.

Sometimes, I lost in my thoughts.

Sometimes, I feel tired for thinking about something.

Sometimes, I don't let myself thinking.

Sometimes, I think that I make myself hard in thinking over something really simple.

Sometimes, I don't want to think at all.

Sometimes, I can't sync people's thought with mine.

Sometimes, I make simple answers for all my thoughts.

Sometimes, I don't know how to treat people properly.

Sometimes, I treat people so rudely.

Sometimes, I just being so ignorant to people.

Sometimes, I don't care what people do to me.

Sometimes, I don't care what people say about me.

Sometimes, I get hurt because what people have done to me.

Sometimes, I get hurt because what people have said to me.

Sometimes, I hate people.

Sometimes, I hate myself.

Sometimes, I just want to die.

Cianjur - Last Day -

2009-12-30T09:55:00.003+07:00

Yaa.. from the title you can infer that today (30/12/09) is my last day here, in Cianjur.

Hiaaa~

I don't want to go home.. I still want to be here T__T

But, what can I do to postpone this trip--coming back to home? Nothing. Gyaaaah~

Uuum.. well, I will write again, when I arrive at home, of course. Hahaha

Gotta' go

see ya'

Cianjur

2009-12-25T18:27:00.005+07:00

Yap.. I arrived at my grandma's house at .. umm.. let's say I just forget about it. Hahaha.. It doesn't matter anyway :p

Yang penting yah nyampe di Cianjur dengan selamat.

Gue berangkat dari rumah tepat jam 10.00 pagi dan sampe di sini gak tau jam berapa. When I awoke I just knew that I already arrived here, at Cianjur.

Kayaknya sih cukup lama diperjalanan.. secara agak mampet gitu deh =__= mana gue pake acara kebelet pipis dulu lagi.. hahaha.. jadi mampir dulu deh ke Cimory, sekalian beli susu :D ENAK! Sekali dayung dua tiga pulau terlewati.

Nah..

Now I don't know what I want to write.. guess this time I don't have much to tell >__< I just hope I won't get bored here.

Just.. how will I?

Guess that it won't happen, since I've brought along my war equipments and my excellent strategy list. Hahaha.. so .. GO FIRE HOLIDAY! XD

--anyway.. I'm at my uncle's warnet now.. hihi.. LOVE YOU FULL UU TEDDY! ~

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2009-12-25T00:37:00.003+07:00

I don't have much thing to say

.. just..

I hope the birth of our SAVIOUR-FATHER JESUS always enlighten our way

from now on until forever

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL

hohoho :)

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